Thursday, 16 May 2013

A Lesson To Remember..

I didn't write this but I had to post it. My relationship has been going through a rough phase and I have been trying to fix things because it all started with me not being patient and sensitive enough. I have been trying to change myself and make the relationship work even though progress has been slow. Because you see, I love him. I love him so much I cannot imagine what would happen if things fell apart. It takes so much strength to keep quiet and not retaliate when you don't agree on certain things, to put yourself in the other person's shoes and try to understand, when you want different things and when all you want is to forgive and forget and start over because letting go is not the option and you know you cannot survive such a heartbreaking decision. 

At times I just don't know what to do or how to react. Even when i'm trying, I often end up saying the wrong things and mess things more than they already are.  I have been confused too and then today I came across this article. I read through it and learnt so many things; things that I should work on and things that I should be because I am a woman. Here it is-

The strength of a woman is carrying the burden of family without expectation that someone will feel her pain or cry her tears.
The strength of a woman is the first one to wake up and the last to go to bed. The strength of a woman is to pretty and doll up all the masks she has to wear in order to survive.

The strength of a woman is crying herself to sleep at night then
embracing you in the morning with a hug and a smile. The strength of a woman is my mother, a woman who says she’s okay when you can tell she’s in pain, a woman who smiles when the going gets tough and a woman who finds laughter after crying. The strength of a woman is to raise a child she does not know.

The strength of a woman hears a child’s cry and knows exactly what they want. The strength of a woman is courage and independence.
The strength of a woman is doing whatever it takes to survive.
The strength of a woman is the backbone that holds everyone together. . . Behind every strong man there is a strong woman.

The strength of a woman is her ability to hold her tongue when her significant other is wrong, to stop her children from misbehaving with a look in her eye to pick herself up and dust herself off to make her family smile in the midst of a storm to multi-task and adapt to different situations to swallow her pride. The strength of a woman is her unconditional love for her children and others.

The strength of a woman is to be a peacemaker. The strength of a woman is to be able to feel things no one else can. The strength of a woman is to be able. The strength of a woman is having faith in God, for she knows God is the only one that has her back. Helping others when they are in need, always there to take the lead. Suffering hard times not for long, because her will is very strong.

Makes you happy with lots of jokes, most importantly they are jokes of hope. Her colors are beautiful, scarlet red, lots of blessings upon her head. The strength of a woman we’ll always know, because her strength will always show.

Tuesday, 14 May 2013

A Beautiful Song

Listened to this song and fell in love with the lyrics instantly. It was played at the wedding of a friend's cousin. One of the most beautiful songs i have ever come across. Jax, I hope you read this :)

"The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures
And instructions for dancing
But I, I love it when you read to me
And you, you can read me anything

The book of love has music in it
In fact, that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb, but
I, I love it when you sing to me, and
You, you can sing me anything

The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know, but
I, I love it when you give me things
And you, you ought to give me wedding rings"
~ Peter Gabriel

Sunday, 5 May 2013

For Jaxen...




Something changed when I realized that you were the one I wanted to reveal parts of my soul to
A profound multidimensional clarity resembling a piece of carefully gathered stardust
As if something inside me was whispering “finally”
My eyes lit up and I didn’t care if my heart melted or crumbled in the process because that thing I felt in that moment was what I had always longed for
That particular instant where I was sweetly forced to surrender into unconditional intimacy
And what I have now with you is all I need.

Saturday, 30 March 2013


 


Things keep repeating like a dream
Now I think I know the ending even before it starts
Love didn't choose to stay
I tried but I was helpless in the end
You ask me to tell you what's hurting me
How can I, when you are the one who is hurting me?
Memories keep flooding back
I wish I could flip a switch and turn it off
I wish I was made of what you are
I wish I could change it all.....
There was a time when i wouldn't trade these memories for the world
Now I would give anything if they'd just go away.
I wanted you to stay, I hoped and prayed that you would
But what you could never tell me, I understood...
I wasn't enough for you.
A permanent scar that can never heal is what you left behind
They say that time will heal
But this one, I'm not sure it will...
Because you see, a part of me died when you couldn't say it back to me.
HOPE is a bitch,
It crushes you from the inside and leaves you battered and scarred...
A broken heart and memories that wont go away...
Perhaps you'll never know and perhaps I'll never show.

Thursday, 6 September 2012

On girlfriends and soul sisters...


 What could be better than spending an evening with
girlfriends over mojitos and margaritas? or any other drink or food for that matter? Nothing at all. My girls have always been my most precious assetts. Time and again we have laughed and cried together, shared our deepest thoughts and secrets, ooh-ed and aah-ed over crushes, cursed ex boyfriends, fought over boys, gossiped about so-called bitches and talked about just anything and everything under the sun. And no matter how busy we are in our own worlds, there is something about the bond that we share that makes us find our way to each other and every time we come together we catch up as if its just yesterday since we last talked. So here is a toast to my pretty, sassy, wonderful girls- for all the times we had and for more that are to come. I love them all to bits!!































XOXO Mhasi  :*




Friday, 6 July 2012

CUTE, TINY, PRETTY LITTLE THINGS.....

Today was quite an eventful day at work. As in, it was a super busy day. But forget work. This is ‘me’ time. Well, it so happens that I love love love kids! Infants, babies, toddlers, little boys and girls....in other words, tiny human beings in every shape, size and color :) I adore them and to me, nothing in this world could be more beautiful than a baby. Their innocent smiles, their tiny hands and feet, their small voices, the way they smile from ear to ear and say ‘thank you’ when you offer them a candy or chocolate no matter how small it is, the way they wrongly pronounce words, the way they draw and write in their adorably messy handwritings, the thousand senseless things that they talk about, the way they can cry one minute and burst out laughing in the next few minutes, the way they look like little angels when they are fast asleep (i  always picture halos whenever i see a small baby sleeping)... there are a thousand things that i love about small children but the thing that  i love and adore most about them is their innocent little hearts...so pure and free from anything bad or negative. Children are such an inspiration and a source of joy and delight any day... A kind word of appreciation or a small candy that you give them can make their day and they remind you to be thankful for the little blessings in life that we, grown-ups often fail to notice  God willing, I’d love to have lots of them someday :)  These are some pictures of babies that I know. Babies from in and around my neighbourhood and the local church that I go to. Innocent, beautiful, wonderful little things.... Bless them all :)

1. DUDU

I absolutely adore this little girl. I see her every sunday at church. She comes all dressed up with her mum and dad and by the time the service is over she is fast asleep :) She doesnt usually smile, she's a serious little person but when she does flash that expensive smile of hers, she has me completely floored. 
Didnt i tell you bout that smile of hers? :)
Look at her missing shoe :) it went missing while i was holding her and we had to search for it for a while :D


She wouldnt stop biting my pen that day!
2. NEISETSO

This little guy is a happy little person. There's always this hint of a smile on his face and he's like, the xerox copy of his grandpa. I call him "apuotsa" which means grandpa, just because he resembles his grandpa so much :) Totally adorable in every way.
A heartfelt smile from the miniature Grandpa :)

3. ROKO

This little guy is gonna be a heartbreaker when he grows up. His mum is one of my mum's best friends. I love his eyes, they're oh-so-charming!!  He's always so polite and always stops to talk when we ask him things. And he's such a good dancer!! He had me floored when i saw him dance last christmas. I totally adore this kid.


Isnt he just so charming?
4. ANONO

This girl is one of the prettiest. She has a deep husky voice and she's always the loudest singer when her Sunday school class performs in church. She's a very smart kid and one who isnt shy at all. A perfect example of complete innocence.


The pretty girl with the deep husky voice :)

5. VISETO

What can I say about this absolutely adorable baby except that I'm crazy about him. There was this one time when I was holding him for a while because his mum was a little busy and the next thing i knew, this adorable little thing just dozed off to sleep in my arms. What a good little boy! Here are some pics of this angel. 

This is a pic of my baby and my cousin Vizo- another crazy kid lover just like me :)

I could just pinch his cheeks and make them go purple. Heights of cuteness!
6. BUBU

He's the love of my life. I love him from head to toe :) He's a little overweight and its such a sight to watch him run and catch up with his playmates. He's the elder brother of Viseto (the previous baby) and he was such a mama's boy, too pampered and all, but he grew up a great deal ever since his younger brother came along. Take a look at his pics and you'll know why i love him :)



Isnt he just too cuttttteeee?????!!!



He wasnt in a very good mood when i took this pic :)

7. AKHUSA

My youngest cousin. He's the funniest kid I know. He makes me laugh with his comments and his mispronounced words everytime I talk to him..... and he loves mango juice! Us cousins often bribe him with mango juice and make him sing, dance and recite nursery rhymes. He'd do anything for mango juice even when he's not in the mood! Such a mango juice lover this little guy is :) He can brighten my mood any day and I'm always happy to babysit him when I can.


The crazy mango juice fan :D

8. ALOHIE

He's the elder brother of the crazy mango juice lover and my little sister's best friend. He's a total gentleman, he can always get along with girls because he never gets angry or picks fights with anyone. He's always so cool, calm, obeys everything that his girl playmates ask him to do (that's probably why my sis loves hanging out with him)  and he's extremely quiet, probably one of the quietest kids that I know. He's gonna grow up into a well mannered young man. That much I can say :)

The quiet little guy :)


9. NEISEDENO WINDY

This pretty little girl is so very tiny... and when i say tiny, i mean really tiny. She's so small and her hands and feet are just too tiny and adorable! And I love her hair. Its light brown and barely covers her scalp because its just too less :) And her mum puts big ribbons and bows and colorful hair clips in her hair which makes her oh-so-pretty! I often wonder where her mum gets her tiny shoes and dresses from. I usually see her dressed in kurtis and leggings when she comes to church and I cant help wincing at how pretty and tiny she is. Her mum says that her name is "Windy" because she was born on a very windy day :) 

                              unfortunately she wasnt wearing a kurti that day :( but isnt she just adorable? :)


10. VIBONU


Last but not the least, she's my baby sister, my only sibling and my angel. She's 6 years old and we have an age gap of 19 years between us :) and people often look at us in disbelief and ask if she's adopted or things like that. But well, we are both from the same parents and she just decided to come along a little late :) I usually spent all of my free time with her and we do all kinds of sibling stuff together. She sleeps with me, comes to me to ask me to help her with her homework, whines when she cant get something done or when mum cant understand something that she wants and i have to do it for her, raids my make up box and puts on my high heels and walks around our compound which makes me go mad etc. However, inspite of everything she's the one person I cannot live without and I'm thankful that I have her and I totally love her to bits :) Here's a pic of my little angel :)



She's such a poser :)




Well so much for now. Will post as soon as my brain can think of something !! 



XOXO

Mhasi :)