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| Friday, December 22nd, 2006 | | 1:47 pm |
No idea
I am so confused. 手伝って？ Nについて．英語で，ごめんなさい！T_T I don't know where this is going. My Christmas is going to be miserable, my sister is in Germany, my best-friend is in Sicily, my parents are in Europe and N is in Japan. Every time I talk to N (Nは日本にいる）I become sad, but he never says anything. All he says is "You think too much." I bought him a Christmas present and a birthday present and spent 2 hours wrapping them, and all he said was "Thankyou." That's all he said. I spend a week looking for his presents. :( He forgot to get me a Christmas present before he left. I also told him I was going to the beach for a week, and he forgot. I got upset that instead of talking to me for the first time since he arrived in Japan, he watched the soccer. All our conversations consist of me getting upset and him doing something else. He never says anything nice to me unless I get angry or upset. Why is he doing this? What should I do?
伊吏亜 - utility poleって何ですか?
tokkari - 一昨日post officeへ行った．プレゼントをpostしました．
たまぽち − Your present will be a bit late, sorry! T_T The post office isn't open until the 27th of December, so I will post it then! | | Sunday, December 17th, 2006 | | 6:47 am |
痛かった．．．
昨日、アルバイトに肩を挫きました．痛かったよ！５時間後で、managerは"今，帰ってもいい、"と言った． ５ジカン後で！Ridiculous! I was DYING from EXCRUCIATING pain, and they sent me home after FIVE HOURS! T_T そして，バスで帰った．Nに言いましたが、分かりませんだった．I needed sympathy... :( 一昨日Nは日本へ帰りました．悲しい．Nは１月３１日にオーストラリアに来て、大学へ行かなきゃ．昨日Nは私に"If you start to like someone else, tell me、"と言いました．＜ーーー何だこれ！？分からない... I don't want to like anyone else...! 月曜日の朝海に行かなければなりませんから，I will post (and draw) presents during the week.
This is a terrible weekend.
Current 今、聞いてる音楽: Light Colors - Lia | | Thursday, December 14th, 2006 | | 7:50 am |
Merry Christmas みんな達！ ワ〜！楽しみ！再来週の月曜日はクリスマスだよ！I can't contain my excitement! (>.<) クリスマスケーキが作らなかった．．．Uh oh! ^^;;; AllデパートはもうChristmas decorationとmince piesを売る．．．mince piesが大嫌い．不味いから．食べたくない．Do many people celebrate Christmas where you live? Some people decorate their houses (it's crazy!), so I will take some photos. It's incredible, some people have HUGE displays in their gardens for people to see! Their electricity bills must be enormous... I finished my exams, I received;
科学 − A
日本語 − A
国語 − A
数学 − B
美術 − B
Some @#$% stole my artwork, so I lost 25% of my grade. 日本語能力試験のLevel 4も終わりましたが、テスト中に笑うこと始まりました．．．ダメだった．．．^^;;; The proctor was NOT impressed. ^^;;; **Anyway, tell me what you want for Christmas. I keep saying this and NOBODY answers me. I'm not going to stalk you, I just want to share! T_T :D Don't be timid, be BRAVE! :D <3 Even if you think I'm stupid! I don't want anything in return, seriously. I couldn't care less whether I get anything in return or not. Current ヒトコト:  さすがCurrent 今、聞いてる音楽: Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks - Panic! At The Disco | | Friday, December 1st, 2006 | | 2:59 pm |
My goodness!
My goodness! ８日! I missed you all! I've had bronchitis, 話せませんでしたから アップデートしませんでした。I wasn't supposed to use the computer, but I snuck on! :D トテモ詰まらなかった！ I missed asks and all of you, even if you didn't miss me. T_T クリスマス買い物をしましたが、I still need addresses to send presents! Sorry this is so impersonal, it feels like it has been a month since I updated. >.< It's a bad feeling. Otherwise everything is good. 高校二年は終わりました！科学の高校二年生中に、（my Japanese is so shocking today） リニアは三番！やった！I want to hear everything, know everything that's going on! How is everyone? It's hard for me to read Japanese at the moment, I get lots of headaches...I wish I could meet you all. It would be so much fun! We would go on a big road-trip and have lots of money and eat and play games together...that's what I wish.
EDIT: 先週、雪が降りましたが、今日は３０＋度．変だね！！ | | Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006 | | 6:12 pm |
本当にごめんなさい！
みんな、ごめんなさい！病気になっているから、ポストしませんでした．まだ、元気になる．死んでる．．．今日は科学と国語のテスト。昨日は数学と美術のテスト．明日は日本語のテスト．ごめんなさい、I have not abandoned you! T＿T Nは still shy. I think Japanese people are very shy, it's so cute! >.<
本当にごめんなさ〜い！T＿T | | Saturday, November 18th, 2006 | | 5:26 pm |
みんな！
本当に有り難うみんな！BLACKBIRDさん、you have not annoyed me! ^_^ I am grateful for your advice! Everyone is so supportive! I am so excited! But N is so shy! >.< Why do you think? Are boys normally shy? >.> | | Thursday, November 16th, 2006 | | 2:34 pm |
本当に有り難う
みんな、本当に有り難う! 昨日、Nに”Nのこと好きです．友達以上に好きです．”Nは”そっか．．．バイバイ！” （Nのバスはもう来たから、行かなければなりませんでした）He told me "I didn't think you were serious!" でも、昨日や今日Nは私に”お前優しいよ" ”お前奇麗．．．” ”目が奇麗” ”本当に優しい．．．” ”お前可笑しい！” "I like your personality!" と言いました．そして、"Can I be your boyfriend?" と言いました．嬉しい．．．今日、えりやMやNといっしょに店に行きました．デートじゃないですけど、楽しかった．ごめんね、詰まらないね．．．
でも、本当に有り難う！BLACKBIRDさん, Thankyou for your message! 少し分かれませんでしたが、優しい！sweetdreamさん、有り難う！たまぽちやtokkari、有り難う！みんな、有り難うございました！嬉しい！ | | Sunday, November 12th, 2006 | | 5:37 pm |
変
一昨日、日本人の友達のNは変なことと言いました．＜ーーごめんね、日本語は上手じゃないねー．
冬っ休みの前に、ショッピングセンターで、いっしょに話した．友達のNは"Would you rather be called beautiful or cute?" 私は"あ〜．．．美しい”った．友達のNは"そっか．．．"った．私は"何で？"った．Nは"There is a girl I like called Christine..."
先週、Nは日本から帰りました．The first time I saw him I said, "N! お帰り！Are you glad you're back?" Nは"うん、嬉しい．"った．Then, as he walked past, he reached out and touched my hip. I have never hugged or touched him before. It was strange, but nice, and I forgot about it.
それから、一昨日日本人の学生といっしょに座った．Nは"Rinia, some guys were talking about you and they said you were cute. But I said you were beautiful." 私は"．．．あっあっありがとう．．．" I didn't know what to say...
これは何？
Current 今、聞いてる音楽: I Love It (Riot in Belgium Forest Rave Mix) - SSS | | Wednesday, November 8th, 2006 | | 7:06 pm |
Life = Problems
今日、友達のレイチェルはproblemがありました。彼氏がいますが、another boy loves her. 好きでしたが、今、彼氏が好き． あいつは「愛してるよ！」った． レイチェルは「ごめんなさい」った． それから、レイチェルにキッスしました! Bastard! それから レイチェルはあいつに「Let go of me!」った。それから、あいつは涙が溢れた。 悲しい．．．So, I spent the whole day trying to fix everything. あいつが好きじゃない．He's trying to make her like him! >:O Nobody forces my friends to do anything they don't want to do! >:O だめ！
She cried on me all day. I wish she wasn't sad. What should I say? What should I do?
Today my Chemistry teacher said my speech was excellent! There was also a fire-drill (very exciting), and I finished my artwork. Tomorrow my artwork will be displayed in an exhibition! :D 写真を取ってもいい！ | | Sunday, October 29th, 2006 | | 5:01 pm |
夏時間
夏時間が大嫌い．毎日早く起きなければなりませんから、何で夏時間がある？夏時間は馬鹿馬鹿しい．本当に．
母はいつも悲しい．りゆうが知りません．毎日父は母に「お母さんが愛してるよ！」と言いますけど、母はもっと悲しい．分かりません．母は元気な配偶者やせがれや娘がふたりがいますから、何で悲しい？家族は母が愛していますから、何で悲しい？私と姉よ弟がうまれる後で、働きませんでした．でも、今母は大学の先生．神学を教えています．とてもおもしろい．でも、とても、とても難しい．難しかったら悲しい？知らない．．．リニアは母が嬉しいになりたい．．．ごめんなさい、それはトテモ人的ね．．．あは．．．^_^;;;
みんな、誰がクリスマスプレゼントがほしい？私にアドレスを上げてください！もう、たまぽちのアドレスが知っています！あはははははは！：D 何がほしい？プランをしなきゃ！疲れました．．．今日、科学のアサインメントをしました．これは私の科学のアサインメント：
Chemistry Oral Presentation
Imagine you’re a research scientist working in a laboratory for the world’s second largest chemical company - DuPont. For the last two years you have been assigned the task of investigating freons, a group of chlorofluorocarbons used primarily as refrigerants. Today you have decided to experiment by freezing and compressing various freons, but upon checking one of the containers, you discover that one of the samples has spontaneously polymerised to form a white, waxy solid – polytetrafluoroethylene or Teflon as it is commonly known. It may sound far-fetched, but this is in fact the way Teflon was discovered, serendipitously by in 1938 by Roy J. Plunkett of DuPont Laboratories.
Teflon is a non-polar, thermoset polymer, is highly chemical resistant, heat resistant with a high melting point, has low surface friction, is weather resistant and does not absorb water. It has a melting point of 335 degrees Celsius, and is a good chemical and thermal insulator.
Teflon was first used during WWII in 1939, where it was used to coat proximity bombs, and to line equipment used in the Manhattan Project – a uranium hexafluoride gas enrichment program. However after WWII ended, Teflon found a more commercial use in non-stick cookware, due to the fact that it repels substances other than itself and so prevents food from sticking to the pan.
Nowadays Teflon is used for a variety of everyday items such as non-stick cookware, stain resistant clothing and carpet, Teflon-coated bullets, electrical insulation, gaskets, pump seals and bearing sealants in cars. The chief reason for such widespread commercial use of Teflon is because of its resistance to heat, “slipperiness” and repulsion of other substances. These properties can be understood upon close inspection of its chemical composition. Teflon has crystalline structure composed of two covalently and single-bonded carbon atoms bonded to four fluorine atoms – two on each carbon atom. When part of a molecule, fluorine atoms don’t like to come into contact with other molecules or fluorine atoms, so when Teflon does come into contact with other substances, it automatically repels them. For example, if a drop of water were to land on a cool Teflon-coated saucepan, it would not stick to the surface of the pan. This is because the fluorine atoms in the Teflon would repel the water molecules, so the water would stay as a droplet on the surface of the pan.
Teflon is a polymer of the monomer tetrafluoroethylene, and can be created two ways – the first being by emulsion polymerisation of tetrafluoroethylene monomers under pressure.
Emulsion polymerisation is a free-radical polymerisation process that uses an emulsion of water, the chosen monomer, surfactant and initiator. Surfactants are long, pin-like molecules. They have a head (much like a pin) that is water soluble, and a long hydrocarbon tail that is soluble only in non-polar organic compounds. The first step in emulsion polymerisation is to dissolve the surfactant in water until the critical micelle concentration, or CMC is reached. Micelles are groups of surfactant molecules. At a certain concentration in water, the surfactant molecules begin to come together and form micelles – this is the CMC.
After the CMC is reached, the chosen monomer and a water-soluble free radical initiator are added. Free radical initiators (initiators) are molecules that tend to split apart to form free radicals (initiator fragments), molecules with unpaired electrons. When the monomer is added, its molecules migrate to the centre of the micelles. This is where the free radicals come in and the polymerisation begins. The free radical initiators are desperate to join onto another particle, and so they migrate to any monomer molecules they can find (at the centre of the micelles) and bond to them. In the instance of Teflon, the double bonds in the tetrafluoroethylene monomers are broken so the reacted monomer has one free electron, making it a free radical. This free radical then searches for another tetrafluoroethylene monomer-come-free radical to bond with, and the process continues until all the monomers have been consumed.
The second way in which Teflon can be produced is by substituting hydrogen atoms on polyethylene molecules with fluorine, using polyethylene and fluorine gas at 20 degrees Celsius.
While Teflon itself is not toxic and has no significant impact on the environment, it does begin to deteriorate at a temperature of approximately 237 degrees Celsius, and releases a number of gases that are global pollutants (cause Ozone depletion and contribute to the Greenhouse Effect). At 240 degrees Celsius, Teflon produces ultra-fine particles that cause extreme lung damage to rats and birds within 10 minutes of exposure, and upon longer exposure, death. At 360 degrees Celsius, Teflon emits six toxic gases tetrafluoroethylene (Teflon monomer), hexafluoropropene, trifluoroacetic, difluoroacetic acid, monofluoroacetic acid and perfluorobutane, two of which are carcinogens (substances that can cause cancer) and two of which are global pollutants. Perfluorobutane has over 8000 times the global warming potential of carbon dioxide.
Teflon monomer tetrafluoroethylene (emitted at 360 degrees) causes leukaemia and tumours in the kidneys and liver of rats, and haemorrhaging of the lungs and death in birds. Hexafluoropropene gas is also emitted at this temperature, and in humans causes what is known as polymer fume fever, resulting in eye, nose and throat irritation, heart palpitations, irregular heart rate, high-temperatures, headaches, light-headedness and fluid accumulation in the lungs. These symptoms can last from hours to weeks depending on the length of time of exposure.
At higher temperatures, other highly toxic gases are given off, and at temperatures of more than 540 degrees Celsius, global pollutants in the form of gases are emitted. One of these, carbontetrafluoride has almost 6000 times the global warming potential of carbon dioxide, and can last in the environment for up to 50,000 years. The scary thing is, a Teflon coated frypan on a normal household stovetop can reach a temperature of 383 degrees Celsius in 5 minutes.
難しかった．．．１０００言葉だったよ！T＿T | | Sunday, October 22nd, 2006 | | 10:16 am |
Snowed under! (@.@)
わ〜！I disappeared for a while! We had a Japanese exchange student called さゆみ, so I had to look after her. 本当に難しかった！さゆみはトテモ優しくて、かわいい．だけど．．．トテモ遅いですよ！いつも遅く歩いた．．．(@_@) It was frustrating sometimes... But still fun! We were in a shop yesterday, and she was looking at kangaroo toys. さゆみは買いたかった．でも “ちょっと高い”(３５ドルぐらい）と言いました．本当に．だから、I took the toy to the clerk, さゆみに”ちょっと待って”と言いました、and I bought it for her! She was shocked, and happy. She kept smiling and saying ”バジニア、本当にありがとう！” And I kept saying "It's okay! Don't worry about it!" It was my present to her, but I wanted to get out of the shop too (the clerk was scary!), so I felt cool! (>.<) How is everyone? tamapochi, I did read your message! My internet broke though, they just fixed it yesterday. I broke my phone too, so now I have to buy a new phone... I'm sorry I don't comment often. It's hard for me to read Japanese, so it takes me about 30 minutes to read a long entry. And sometimes I don't understand... Sorry! I'll try harder! (っT_T)っ I have 3 assignments... for Art, Chemistry and English... They're all so hard! (@.@) I am studying "V for Vendetta"! :D XD | | Monday, October 16th, 2006 | | 7:59 pm |
詰まらなかった．．．
今日は４thターム初めての日．詰まらなかったよ〜！科学や数学や国語や美術がありました．デートはcrapでした．その男が見たくない．．．今日、友達を見た時、I said, "Sean! I missed you!" And he said, "Are you feeling okay? Are you sick?" 可笑しかった！たまぽち、examは良かった？わ〜！みんながダイスキだよ！今日新しい日本人の学生はオストラリア来ました．背が高いですよ！でも、I like Eri and Yuiko the most. I miss Yuiko... WOW, my life is boring... tamapochi, did you get the package? | | Friday, October 13th, 2006 | | 7:24 pm |
昨日、友達は私に"Do you want to go out?"といいました。怖かった！昨年、he asked me and I said "Thankyou, but I already have a boyfriend." 今、彼氏がいないから、he asked again. なぜ！？ I don't understand why! これはデートですか？ | | Thursday, October 12th, 2006 | | 5:16 pm |
I missed you all! (T_T) わ〜〜！みんなはどこ! (;_;) tamapochi's account is playing up - I hope it gets fixed soon! コメントをしなくてごめんなさい！I just have no idea how to fix computer-related things. (^_^;) がんばって！ 今日や昨日、 stage production がありました．毎日５時間. 死んでいると思った．．．今日、 marshmallow-Rice Bubble squares を作りました! 写真はこっち！ 私の猫皿やお菓子お菓子シャツは汚い疲れた．．．ごめんなさいtokkari! My download didn't work...so DEATH NOTEを見ることができませんでした. ごめんなさい！ m(_ _)m みんな、 この建物は私の高校！ 見て、見て！ Current ヒトコト:  おにーにCurrent 今、聞いてる音楽: Cassie - ME&U | | Tuesday, October 10th, 2006 | | 7:37 pm |
質問！ Today watching a television show, I remembered this. I think it's incredible, and scary. I couldn't find it in Japanese... (^.^;) They say that, to rescue the miners, they had to drill through rock FIVE TIMES (5X) harder than concrete! :O I think it's amazing... Today I went to see my friend's new apartment. Now I can walk to her house. It's a penthouse apartment, and it's BEAUTIFUL... I want to live there... I will take photos tomorrow! :D Today I did lots of exercise because I felt sad. Now I feel much better! :D But I had a question, what does everyone do? I mean, what do you do for a job/what do you study? I am curious to know! :D Today I also bought a ３０００円 iTunes music voucher, so I can buy KOTOKO and Shimamiya Eiko's new albums! :D So exciting... P.S. Sorry I am so boring, it's 春休みから、I have nothing to do... (^.^;) Edit: Death Note anime is out! XD I can't wait to see it... | | Monday, October 9th, 2006 | | 2:49 pm |
お婆さんは帰った！
今朝、お婆さんはQueenslandに帰った！嬉しい．．．母や父や弟も嬉しい．そして、Gungahlin Post Officeに行きました．たまぽちのparcelをsendしました．頭がいたいから、すぐ寝たい．みんな、お元気？ tokkari, it's okay, really! Good thing your roof hasn't collapsed on top of you...it seems it happens often. (^.^;) Either way, we're glad you're alive! (^.^) Your cat is so cute... :D たまぽち、しなないで！Are you still alive? Did you drink too much?(@.@;)I'm worried! | | Saturday, October 7th, 2006 | | 7:57 pm |
なぜ！？
みんな、助けて！お婆さんはまだ家に帰らなかった！Is that right? (@.@) I have been so bored. アルバイトは詰まらなかった！One man stole something and ran away, and my friend Steph got into trouble. 友達のStephは大学二年生．日本語が話せます．時々、私とStephはいっしょに日本語を話す．でも、Stephの日本語が上手．．．riniaはバカ compared to Steph. (T.T) 今日、my neck hurt. 今日、riniaの一番好きな男は私に話さなかった．なんで．．．？いつも、私たちがアニメについて話した．．．ね〜．今日、THE STUPID POST OFFICE WAS CLOSED! I HATE THE POST OFFICE. I had the worst day...everybody was angry at me, I did nothing right. (T.T) I was happy to see my asks friends... 嬉しい．I have decided to buy a new electronic dictionary! So I can type kanji I don't know and understand them! あっ！今夜、日本人の友達のゆきは、私に電話をかけて．嬉しかった！The last time I saw and spoke to her was two years ago! Her voice is so cute! She is coming to visit me on １２月１５日．I want to come to Japan in January, but I don't think I will have enough money. ごめんね．みんなたちに会いたい. 悲しい．．．ごめんなさいたまぽち．I'm sorry to disappoint you again. I will go to the post office Monday to post your parcel. I'm sorry. I want to cry... | | Thursday, October 5th, 2006 | | 7:35 pm |
お婆さんは．．．怖い．．． み〜んな！今テレビを見ていますから、このエントリはとても短い。ごめんね！ これはアニマニアのフォーラム。コスプレの写真。見て〜！今日、７時から２時まで働きまし た。つかれた...今日、お婆さんはQueenslandから来ました。怖い。お婆さ んは．．．優しくてcrazy. トテモcrazy. You can't even begin to comprehend how crazy she is...でも、明日、友達といっしょにえいがを見なきゃ．Escape from grandma!!! :D 嬉しい．．．「The Devil Wears Prada」を見たい．土曜日に、７時から４時まで働かなきゃ．したくない．．． リニアは１３歳に、ちちは East Timorにいましたから、お婆さんにたずねました．お婆さんの家に泊めりました．３ 日の後で、なきあけびました． 家族はとてもへんから、毎年一度見ます． Current ヒトコト:  タスケテーCurrent 今、聞いてる音楽: Prism - m-flo | | Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006 | | 8:14 am |
写真！だれかの．．．(^.^;) ここ写真があります！They're not mine though... (^.^;) My photos aren't uploading properly, so I will try again soon. どの人はrinia? :D The first person to guess gets a present! That means you have to give me your address! ほほほほほほ！自分で私と友達のcostumeを作りました！ 写真をクリックしたら、写真は大きいになります！５ペイジがあります． Current ヒトコト:  ようかんマンCurrent 今、聞いてる音楽: 决战二世祖 - 側田 | | Saturday, September 30th, 2006 | | 9:06 pm |
つかれた．．．！ 今、ｉｎｔｅｒｎｅｔ ｃａｆｅにいる。つかれた！今日はａｎｉｍｅ ｃｏｎｖｅｎｔ ｉｏｎだった。とても、トテモカッコいい！たくさんｂａｄｇｅｓやｎｅｃｋｌａｃｅや たくさんＤＶＤ（となりのトトロやもののけひめ）やたくさんＣＤやエーアのまんがやｔ －ｓｈｉｒｔｓやたくさんｆｉｇｕｒｉｎｅ（もえたんやＦａｔｅ／ｓｔａｙ ｎｉｇｈ ｔ）や新しいかばんやケーキのストラップ（ｃｅｌｌ－ｐｈｏｎｅ ｓｔｒａｐ）やおり がみのかみを買った。カッコよかった！みんな、お元気？どう？今、なにしてるの？うれ しい．．．ａｎｉｍｅ ｃｏｎｖｅｎｔｉｏｎ二一手、ａｓｋｓの友達がいます！Ｉ ｗ ｉｌｌ ｐｏｓｔ ｐｉｃｔｕｒｅｓ ｓｏｏｎ！ Current ヒトコト:  かしわもーち |
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