Today our sweet little angels, Sophie and Brayden are celebrating their 9th Birthday in Heaven.
Nine years.
Every year on this day, the ache comes back just as strong as the day we said Goodbye.
I carry on with my days throughout the year. Live my life.
The every day routine of being a busy wife and mommy.
But on this day, every year. I cry.
I cry for what might have been.
What If .
And what was Meant to Be.
Then I wipe my tears, hug my beautiful daughters, and Thank God that I have three children waiting for me when I get there someday.
I thank Him for blessing me with the love of my two darlings here on Earth.
After we say our prayers for them and sing a sweet birthday song, we send their balloons to meet them in the sky.
At that moment.. my ache is replaced by a sweet peace.
Happy 9th Birthday, our Loving Angels. May God hug you extra tight for me today!
51 comments:
I had no idea of this part of your story. I'm praying for you today....that the Lord would continue to mend your broken heart and also thanking him for the joy that he has given to you in the midst of such loss.
What a sweet thing to do. I am sorry that you had to do through this. There will be lots of love waiting for you there. I'd like to think the same thing about the 4 that are waiting for me.
Hugs
what a comfort our hope is! blessedness!
What a sweet way to remember your babies and my thoughts are with you today (;
Bigs Hugs~Kelly
Here is a hug from one Melanie to another... There is also Bella Mella- ( Melanie) Who lost her son Andrew in December - her writing is so anointed...Thanks for sharing your grief and hope in such a profound way. XOXOXO
Melanie, my thoughts and prayers are with you today. I'm so sorry for the unimaginable loss you experienced. You are so strong and an inspiration.
~Kiri
Sending you a great big hug and thinking of you! My sweet little boy would have been 9 next month and it is about the worst thing that a momma can bare to go through, your such a strong lady. xoxo
Beautiful images, they made me cry. I didnt know this part of your life. I have felt a little of your pain today , it is a remimder to be grateful of everyday we have we our beautiful children. I am going to give my darlings a extra big hug right now.
Karyn xo
I can't even imagine. My prayers are with you today.
Oh, sweet Melanie...
I send you the biggest hug and the sweetest thoughts. I understand that ache all too well.
You will be held close in my prayers this day.
Love,
Anne
What a beautiful part of your life to share with us. I, too, have a baby boy in heaven waiting for me. He would be nine in July. Maybe our children are celebrating together today at the feet of Jesus. WOW!!!
Tears for you right now Melanie. Praying for you and your family. I just lost a baby in pregnancy and I find myself always thinking how far along I would be now. I can't imagine how it must feel for you. Take care,
Janice
This post made me cry.
In March, I lost my youngest sister. She was stillborn, 2 weeks before her due date, from placenta abruptio.
At her funeral (which was so beautiful it's indescribable), the children in attendance were all given balloons, pink for her and green for her funeral date, St. Patrick's Day.
I just can't tell you how much I love the idea of continuing to release balloons for her every year.
God bless you for being such a loving and caring and strong mommy. Your children are just beautiful and I'm sure the three who went ahead of you are just as beautiful, if not more so now that they have been glorified.
I'm sending my love and thoughts and prayers to you and yours. Thank you for this post. Thank you so much!
Melanie
i don't think anyone could read your post and not feel deeply for you......we sense your pain for what you have lost and your joy of what you have gained......there may not be words to make you feel better but i wanted to write this lovely reading that was read at a friends daughters funeral and hope that it might just bring you some comfort...........
When someone dies a cloud turns into an angel and flies up to tell God to put another flower on a pillow. A bird gives the message back to the world and sings a silent prayer that makes the rain cry. People disappear but they never really go away. The spirits up there put the sun to bed, wake up the grass and spin the earth in dizzy circles.
Sometimes you can see them dancing in a cloud during the daytime when they are supposed to be sleeping. They paint the rainbows and also the sunsets and make waves splash and tug at the tide.
They toss shooting stars and listen to wishes. And when they sing wind songs they whisper to you.....don't miss me too much the view is nice and i am doing just fine.......
My heart goes out to you today on this special day. I love the idea of releasing balloons. So sweet! So glad you have your precious daughters to share your life with. And 3 children waiting for you with open arms when you arrive one day in heaven. You are such a beautiful person both inside and out. Praying for you and your family today. Love & blessings from NC!
I, too, did not know this part of your story. I have two children waiting for me in heaven and three here. There is always a missing of them but i am glad that God is taking care of them if i can not. Praying for you.
Prayers to you. I could not help but wipe a tear when I read your post about there is always hope.
Sweet Melanie ~ my heart aches today for you and your family. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you as always and I send a huge hug from across the seas. You always inspire me as a Mother. ~ Tina xx
what a beautiful way to remember your boys. sending prayers your way...hugs, Cathy
God Bless you and your husband, Melanie...and ALL your babes.
Debbie@houseatthelake
My heart is aching for you today! I cant believe how strong you are. How do you do it? Your a angel from God. There is something special you are here to do. Thank you for sharing this. ~lulu
dearest Melanie,
my heart aches for you today,i dont know what the feeling of true heartbreaking loss feels like, but i know how it feels to love a child.I cannot imagine what you are feeling,but i pray the aching will subside and will be replaced with only joy from the two precious girls here for you.
god bless you and your family today.
The pain of losing someone no matter the age never goes away. This is a beautiful tradition you have continued every year! Bless your sweet babies in Heaven and Bless your sweet babies on Earth!
What a beautiful way to celebrate your children in Heaven. You are full of beautiful ideas, wonderful talent and an attitude for living life that is example for others to follow. Your daughters are two lucky little girls to call you mommy! If all mothers were like you this world would be a more beautiful place. Today, I'm thinking about you and your family, those in Heaven and on Earth. Enjoy your weekend.
Mel, I'm praying for you now.
What a beautiful and touching tribute to all five of your little angels! You are in my prayers!
Oh, a Mother's Heart never stops loving or aching for the ones that are missing here on earth. Oh, the blessed hope of Christ and Heaven!
I have tears in my eyes reading this. Just found your blog and I love it. Thoughts and prayers are with you!!
What a beautiful and sad post. I lost a baby girl, Elaine, almost 36 years ago and we send balloons to her in Heaven every year on her birthday....your pictures were so sweet..God Bless you
Hi Melanie, A heart of gratitude heals all . . God's blessings and hugs sent your way! Sandy:O)
Melanie my thought and prayers are with you today.
This is such a touching message, and deeply felt. Sending lots of love and prayers your way <3
What a lovely ritual, my heart is with you and your husband..Rachaelxx
I love how you celebrate them every year! Big hug your way!
XO
Kristin
Heartbreaking and precious! Happy birthday to your babies. That's a very sweet tradition.
☺ Celeste
tender. sweet. loving. precious.
I cannot know your heartache but know your faith and I will say a prayer for you and your family.
What beautiful words and photographs. I hope that you feel them close to you always. I know the pain too well, and I ache for you Melanie. You are such a sweet mother...
I'm saying a little prayer for you and your family tonight.
Beautiful!
My heart aches for your loss Melanie. Such a beautiful way to remember them.
I'm sending you a big hug and hoping to ease the pain of your loss in some small way.
hugs
oh sweet sweet melanie, you are truly in my prayers this weekend. i am so so sorry.....
i have written & deleted several words for you...but sometimes nothing sounds right
know you are in my prayers
What a beautiful way to remember your angels. I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless, Susan
Melanie
Sending you love and prayers to easy the ache. I know that our heavenly Father is holding you all so very close my friend. We a celebration it will be when all of you are together as one.
Warm wishes to your heart
Kate
simply beautiful post. Thank you for sharing with all of us.
What a beautiful birthday celebration! we send balloons to Heaven too!! and I cry that day as well...but then I rest in the comfort of meeting again someday.
Many Blessings!
Jill
Oh sweet girl...they are dancing for Joy on those beautiful golden streets...waiting for their mama. What a beautiful celebration Melanie. Sending you prayers for strength and comfort.
I did not know about your loss. I'm really sorry that it happened to you, but I'm sure you will hug them again someday. You're a courageous mother, I really admire you for that. xoxo
God bless you, Melanie, and your sweet little family. Blowing kisses to Sophie and Braden, and sending up prayers for you.
What a beautiful tribute to your children,and for your girls to participate in.
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Mathew 19:14
Blessings
Natalie
So sorry for the pain and heartache. I cannot even imagine.
I've just red this post and discovered your inner pain. I feel so soorow for what had happened to you and still find you're a wonderful, sweet, strong woman!
many hugs!
Mara
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