Struggles

   Happy Labor Day everyone who gets a day off today.  I did, but I think I'd rather have been working.  Probably for the holiday pay.  But I do also generally like my job.  Most of the time lol.
   I'm sure you've all noticed that I've been rather sparse on posts lately.  The reason is that I've been struggling a lot with my depression lately.  I won't bore you all with details, but some days it's all I can do to get up and get through the day.  Days that I don't cry are a special victory.  My doctor even double my anti-depressants a few weeks ago because things were getting so bad.
   So what does this mean for the blog?  It means that I'm going to continue to post sporadically as I have the energy.  I would love to post on a regular schedule, but right now that is too much for me.  I will be posting collections late or out of season for a bit.  This blog is supposed to be fun for me, a way to share my love of nail polish, and lately it hasn't been.  So I'm not going to force myself to post when I feel like I'm only doing it because I have to, not because I want to.  I'm hoping that will take some of the extra pressure I've been putting on myself off so that I can go back to enjoying blogging.  
   I've been putting too much pressure on myself in all aspects of my life, not just this blog.  I will be working on all of those aspects, but this is my starting point.  I truly appreciate all of you and hope you will stick with me through this rough patch. 

How I Spent My New Years

   Hello lovelies.  Happy New Year to you all.  Did anyone do anything exciting?  Mine didn't exactly go as planned.  Not that I had major plans, but I was hoping to maybe go get a drink or two with friends at least.  That's not what happened at all.
   What did happen is this:  I was at work early the morning after Christmas, think 6am early, when I suddenly started getting extremely sick- vomiting, light-headed, intense abdominal pain.  I wound up going home about halfway through what my shift was supposed to be.  I started feeling better that evening and woke up feeling fine the next morning so I went in to work as planned.  But as the day went on I started feeling really bad again and went home about an hour early again.  I started feeling better again a few hours later.  This continued for the next couple days- wake up ok, feel like crap and maybe throw up for an hour or so, then feel better.  Sunday however I slowly started feeling bad about mid-morning and continually got worse.  By 3 I could barely move I was in so much pain and had been vomiting for 2 hours.  So I decided it was time to go to the doctor.  My husband took me to the urgent care center.  They saw me immediately and wound up sending me to the ER in an ambulance.  There the lovely doctors gave me some magic drugs that made the pain tolerable while they examined me.  Fairly quickly the doctors determined that my gallbladder was enlarge, inflamed, infected, full of stones, and generally in desperate need of removal.  Or something like that I was not fully able to comprehend what was going on. So they admitted me to the hospital and pumped me full of liquids and antibiotics.  I was also very dehydrated at this point.  On Monday the doctors did an endoscopic procedure to clear my bile duct of any stones that were stuck there and then yesterday they removed my gallbladder.  I slept most of Monday because I was running a fever that varied between 100-102 all day and into Tuesday.  Once my gallbladder was out though the fever immediately went down and was quickly gone completely.  I was discharged this morning and am now resting at home.  
   I am already feeling MUCH better.  I'm taking this week and next off from work to recover and have a follow-up appointment with the surgeon on Monday.  But that is why I am also going to be taking a short break from here as well.  I'm not supposed to be using my abdominal muscles too much, which is really hard btw if you've ever tried to not use those, so even using my laptop too much is a bit of a strain.  I will be back as soon as I can to finish up my Fall and Winter/Holiday reviews and get started on Spring reviews. 

A Couple Quick Notes

   Hey guys!  Just wanted to mention a couple things real quick. 

   First, as you may have already noticed, I have started allowing ads in the sidebar.  I may place them elsewhere in the blog as well as time goes on, but I haven't decided yet.  If you see any ad that is offensive or inappropriate, please let me know so I can block it.  

   The second thing is about comments.  I do not moderate comments before they are posted at this time.  Nor do I usually delete comments that are made.  HOWEVER, I will delete comments that are clearly spam or trolling, have absolutely nothing to do with the post, or include lots of profanity/personal attacks, either to myself or others.  I don't mean comments that dislike a color or a design et c.  Everyone is entitled to their opinions.  But please, as Wil Wheaton would say, don't be a dick.  I have deleted just a couple of comments so far, but if at any point this becomes a bigger issue, I will enable moderation for comments.  That is also why I disabled anonymous comments. 

   Have a great day everyone.  I leave you with a cute squirrel picture just because.