a story to tell

Alhamdulillah... AllahuAkbar...we were pregnant again...=D

it wasn't an easy pregnancy for me...
usually ppl will advice u to take a good care of yourself in this 1st trimester...after 3 months...then u should be in safe zone. unfortunately not for me. i've been in and out of hospital... starting from 2nd trimester. i was diagnosed with placenta previa stage 2. i panicked and cried hysterically when i saw blood. not the usual brown spotting . i thought the baby was gone..takot hanya Allah yang tau. we went straight to emergency...alhamdulillah.. i can still hear his heartbeat. i was ordered to bed rest...for a week. it happens several time... until i was warded for 4 days... and my boss asked me to work from home rather than travelling to and fro to the office.

it didn't end there...its like having your period monthly... i continue to bleed... but since i already know the drill...and the baby is still moving, no abdominal pain... i just lay down and rest.

On 34th week
Doc. Delaila advised to go for caesarean...because of the low laying placenta. it was scheduled on 6th August 2013... ok to tell you frankly... i'm quite comfortable with it ~ngee... yelah..org ckp sakit bersalin nie uncompareable and  my tolerance to pain...is closer to 0. hahahhaaa. i planned to deliver in Kuantan....thus it is advisable to go back before 36weeks.

Ramadhan at home...
It is sad to leave Nizam alone for Ramadhan and to be apart from him. we are now playing the part of weekend husband and wife for a while. to all weekend husband and wife... i salute all of you... i know i can't do it any longer...it sadden me to wave goodbye to him every Sunday or Monday morning.

Alhamdulillah... the placenta is in its right position...
i can go for normal delivery...erk...i started to think about the drugs options :
1. pethadine - u can still feel the pain... it will cause sleepiness...and breathing problem for the baby and                               you... - No! hahhaa.
2 epidural - ooo yes... hahahaa. epidural... the procedure is like lumbar puncture... quite scary... imagining                        big syringe injected to your spinal cord. but then... when ppl said the labour is more painful... but                    the cons of using epidural... if its injected correctly... u wont feel anything at all... the cons...u                          wont know how hard to push..in result...forceps or vacuum will be use.
                   - ok masa doc ckp mcm nie..mom dah against epidural.

i was so scared... i asked a few ppl...including the midwives... my mom even ask me to ask the doctor... if its ok to go for elective caesarean. hahaha... yeah... still mummy's little girl =D

11/8/2013
i started to bleed... my sister said its a sign. gulp! so we went to the hospital...the midwife do a CTG. no contractions she said...so we went home...i couldn't get a good night sleep...keep on waking up due to stomach ache...more like period pains and this is just the beginning...