Feeling Better Today

After a very soul searching and productive week-end I am feeling much better. I had a great and I mean great talk with my hubby on Saturday morning ~ do we do it or do we put some money into this place and stay?? Well ~ we pondered and talked and decided to let everything just sit for a day ~ that was Saturday.

So I headed to the hardware store to get what a needed for my project (more on that at a later date), worked on a few things, sat in the sun, read my book, had a nap and then got up and cooked a fabulous meal ~ if I do say so myself! We decided over supper that we would "go for it"... Look at it like a blank canvas, a new chapter ~ yours to discover. Ah ~ I do not feel nauseous or like I want to jump off a bridge ~ this is good. To complete my day I received a much needed phone call from my cousin ~ one of my best girls EVER ~ and she also talked things out with me. It put some wind back into my sails and I got so much done on Sunday ~ what a girl.

So ~ I am still de-cluttering, organizing and purging ~ but with a lighter heart.

Declutter, Organize, Purge

Here I sit on Saturday morning planning my day. I would love nothing better than to grab my book and head out to the deck and just laze the day away but I can't and I won't. You see we have been talking about selling our house and building one ~ yep ~ brand spankin' new ~ so why do I feel nauseous?

We have been in our house now for 7 years ~ it is a big 4 bedroom and when we purchased it we imagined filling it with children... well not quite "filling" ~ but 2 was our goal. Alas here we are and although we tried, it did not happen for us. Now I am OK with that now ~ my life is full and I have accepted it although some people still ask us "how come". Whatever.... I am veering off topic and what is weighing heavy on my mind.

The house is too big for us ~ we are filling it with stuff ~ stuff we don't need... So last week-end we went and looked at 5 different houses ~ and picked one we liked. We met with our realtor and decided we will be listing ours on the 15th....OF THIS MONTH! Ahhhhhhhh So last night I was upstairs cleaning, organizing, throwing some things out and packing some things up. I took a break and went outside for a break ~ played with the dog ~ kicked around the ball and looked around.... my gardens ~ not that they would make any magazine, but they are mine! The lawn, the mature trees, our wonderful neighbors and I almost went into the "ugly cry". Why am I so filled with dread about something that it suppose to be so wonderful?? The payoff in the end will be so huge ~ so why am I not elated? I am going to have to ponder that today and have a long talk with hubby....

Thanks for listening.....

xo