I stole a moment on my bench, before the November cold came. Sitting there helps me to take a real time out. A pause. It's a moment of just being me, doing what I want. No distraction, only nature. And cats. They wander around my legs, tip toe under the bench, climb the tree, lay down under the table...
I most often make it cozy. It's a procedure I enjoy: dragging out blankets and pillows, a table cloth in summer, some flowers, a cup of coffee or tea, a project of some kind. It can be crochet, a book, a deck of cards, a note pad to draft ideas and plans in...
I bring my phone and listen to Swedish radio, or an entertaining podcast. Or I sit in silence, observing birds, hearing cars in a far distance, seeing airplanes drawing white fluffy lines in the sky, saying hi to the neighbor when he walks up to his bee hives...
The older I get, the more I realize how much I love hanging out with myself. How much I need to be in my own company. Alone. Maybe it has to do with the new phase in my life, the one where kids are growing up and time for me is becoming more accessible? People talk about how important it is to reconnect with their spouse at this time in life. I feel an incredibly strong need to reconnect with myself.
I am not a social butterfly, I don't need endless with activities and stimulation to stay content. Actually I've always been more of a loner. I
can be nice, chatty and somewhat hilarious to hang out with at times. I
tell stories, curse and laugh out loud in good company. I can probably
be mistaken for being a very outgoing person, but the larger part of me
loves to be solely me.
My bench represents a free zone, a place where I can withdraw to when I need some space. If I could I would spend days on my bench, on my own... For some reason I feel guilty saying that. Like I am letting someone down. Afraid of hurting someones feelings. But just because I am in great need of some alone time, that doesn't mean I don't want to hang around my little ones and my
partner in crime or that I don't want to hang out with friends and engage in long conversations.It doesn't mean I love my family and friends less. I just simply miss being alone. I miss me. Myself. I. It's totally normal, isn't it? Say it is...
Sitting on my bench on a sunny afternoon in November in solitude is a real treat to me.
"Embrace it", I tell myself.
"It's good to be friends with yourself. It's a gift. Embrace it." And so I do. I sit on my bench and hang out with myself. I'm having a great time.
Kärlek
Annette
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