Summer's past
a smattering of summer photos from June-early September
The summer is technically still here for another week, but Autumn is definitely in the air.
I get such good intentions, but in the end I neglected this space far more than I meant to. So much has happened~ my heart is so full and my mind is so occupied. . . for one, another one of my kids has flown the nest and gone to college. . . and with him another piece of my heart.
I am in a time of so much change. . . and I am quickly having to somehow become accustomed to it all, fit it into my life without drifting about utterly distracted all of the time. Some of it is just so good, some of it is ordinary life stuff (that happens to nearly everyone but is new to me), and some of it is challenging in a way that absolutely breaks my heart- stops me in my tracks- and I need to take a deep breath before moving onward.
I find myself reminiscing, full of remembering- I can see my little ones superimposed over my now grown children. I see myself as a little girl, hear my own little voice and see through those eyes. I see the beginning of my old crone self in the mirror. Because I am also looking forward, finding meaning everywhere, thinking about myself and who I am, and what is out there for me. This time, middle age/aging- is a threshold we are shoved in front of seemingly suddenly. . . a beginning we have no choice but to partake in, but can choose how we enter. I am bursting with it all. Yes, it is a gift.
And I am still here, still me, wishing you peace.
Love, Melanie
Good morning! I'm glad you're still here. I am in a similar season to you. 5 of my 7 children are adults now, with just 3 left at home. But my youngest is only 7, so it is a funny thing to be saying goodbye to my older children as they fly away with my youngest being especially sad to be left behind. Beautiful and sad. It leaves me feeling untethered. I too am trying to see what is next, who am I now? I have spent 25 years homeschooling but now my two youngest are in school. One in the public high school and my 7 year old in a homeschool waldorf hybrid. And I have found myself being the library director at my local library. But working even part time has been very hard to get used to. Wishing you luck & wisdom!
ReplyDeleteP.S. Can I ask what you are knitting with those sweet blue hearts?