I have an unknown feeling in heart, what is it?

Since yesterday, I had this kind of feeling, which I don't know either it was a sign of depression,tensed or annoying to someone. Seriously, I don't know what was wrong with me.

I told my best friend, MrN about the feeling this morning.As usual, he was a good listener,didn't gave any comments, just kept quiet. Sometimes, his reaction towards my complaints was really annoying.Comfort words are all I needed so that I knew that I am not alone. But, MrN is always MrN. He always reserved his comments until he thinks it is a right time to speaks, then he will do his job.

You see, MrN and I,we have a different characters. He was the one who always face a problem with a broad smile, as if it wasn't a big deal. I think all men are like that. I am on the other hand,was an aggressive ones. I don't like to sit down and cry whenever things aren't going my way. I will try to solve it ASAP, no matter if it had to hurt someone's feeling. The worst,I even wrote to FB's wall about my dissatisfaction towards someone, for instance, a sarcastic post when MrN accidentally put in my Ariani scarf to washing machine. As a consequences, the result was always backfire me and caused me a lot of troubles. Amikaw!!

I think this is why Allah grants me a good husband as MrN. All good things come in pairs, isn't it?
Oh and back to the main story, until now I still have that kind of feeling:(

Note::sms from MrN "areT, instead of cracking your head thinking about the unknown feelings, why don't you just sit down and accelerate your phD work?"

Qoute

Never tell your problems to anyone...20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them.

This quote I copied from the 'Best Quotes' page in a Facebook. Most of the times, I go through this page and believed me, I did enjoy while I read it.

Back to the quote I copied. All I can say is, I couldn't agree more with it. So which category are you falling into,20% or 80%?

Down with fever

Pity my little princess Iman. She's down with fever since yesterday. Her body temperature sometimes is normal, but the other time it is beyond 37.5 degree,so I've decided to stay at home rather than send her to the nursery. I prefer to monitor her condition myself. The reason why she got fever? I am not pretty sure,but I think it is because of her first white cap will coming soon..hehehe..Get Well soon Iman.

In the middle of nowhere

The more I learn, the more I realize how little I know~Plato

Right now, I am in the middle of nowhere. So many data to analyze and interpret:(
Ya Allah, permudahkan bgku, dan jgnlah kau sukar kan...amin

Am I a loser?

Its so cold , as cold as ice,so did my heart.This day, at this time, I feel like give up and have a full stop of what I am doing now.I feel like I want to throw anything that I've done and walk away. I don't deserved here, the place where all the intelligent people share their ideas, thoughts and speak their mind through hard works and papers. My place is not here.

Sometimes, GOOD people make BAD choices. But it doesn't mean they're bad. . . It means they're humans

Due date

Only 9 months left before I have to report duty. The day when I have to go back to my old workspace (hopefully not) and start the routines all over again. Whether I'm coming back with a PhD or not, future will tell.

At this stage, there's a lot of works need to be done. Experiments,simulations,analysis, decision, to name a few. I don't know whether all this things can be settle on this July next year but hey, let's try and see what happened. :))

You've got to get up every morning with determination if you're going to go to bed with satisfaction.
George Lorimer

Iman @ 10-month-old

"any chocolate for me, mama?"

she starts 'helping' me in organizing her cloth basket:)

"we love you Iman Najibah regardless of what people had told me of how 'halus' you are, as long as you are healthy"

Motivational

Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.~Pamela Vaull Starr

My way,My Phd.

I am worry, that's all I can say about my PhD. It is not because the project is so difficult,that you have to solve every single thing in every person's problem in this world,but it is because of yourself (me).

PhD is a journey.This journey is so lonely,I must say. You have no friend along your way and the path is so dark,you can't see nothing. Every now and then, you keep on searching the right way to reach out from that path. Your seek a helping hand,but you got nothing. There's a time you feel the eagerness to go out, but end up, you failed and sit all alone and cry. My legs feel so heavy and my heart like to explode! I'm stuck!

They lied when they told you it was your right to have things just the way you want them. Life isn't about getting your way. It's about finding your way.~Yasmin Mogahed

Motivation

May I have a strong heart like my daughter,Iman Najibah!! Everyday she never fails to learn a new things. Push toy is always her best friend today. She will walks soon, and remember dear, if you happened to walk,just walk in styles!!May Allah blessed you dear Iman.