You gain some you win some

Yesterday
I shared the surprising wins of my customers
Yup customers...
Not customer
Happy and proud moment
After all the hard work and sacrifies

Today
I got the news that certain people have already got the invitation for the pitching session
How about me and my team?
Does it mean we are not selected?
Or our application is rejected?
A bit dissapointed and down
Coz this is my first application
Finally, this it is?
After we have been waiting since early sept 2019?
If we do not have any project ...
Colleagues look down on us...
People from other unit call us lazy
And do not have any contribution
The top people labelled us as very poor people
But when we tried to apply
This is the result ...
So what else we should do


Last time
when I am all prepared with the materials
Suddenly I was appointed for certain position
That position made my life miserable
And I totally forgotten for the project application

This time
No matter I am not fully ready
I had to get a move
This is part of my job
And as career development
So I really made an effort
Almost gave up
But due to system error I managed to justify and submit my application
Unfortunately the result...as what I heard today
No rizq in this
At least I have tried....
I have to accept whatever happens
And move on
I win some and lose some

Cuti-cuti Seni

Hello ladies !!!!
Berbuka apa today?
Setakat ni dah cuti puasakah?
My kembar kali ni mengada-ngada.
Main acah2 pulak ...
Betulkah ada?
Entah2 bukan.
Dah puasa semula barulah muncul dengan jayanya

So korang cuti panjangkah?
Lima hari terus?
I hanya ikut cuti yg diberi je
So esok keroje lah

Cuti ni korang buat apa?
Pi shopping utk raya?
Berkemas untuk raya?
Atau rehat2 aje
I kemas rumah pun tak sempat
😱😰😅😁

Ni antara hasil seni I untuk 3 hari ini for my project

Jangan ketawalah
Ni baru 5% je 😁
Senilah sangatlahkan 😂😂😂
Itu je yang mampu

Haritu hanya guna Paint
Kali ni up sikit guna AI
Dah lama tinggal
Jenuh nak recall
First time guna semasa di OZ dulu for my poster
Tapi ada juga asas2 yg hampir sama dari Macromedia flash dulu
Yg tu belajar guna semasa 2004/2005 kot
Lama sungguh 😅😅😅

Biasalahkan kalau tak tahu atau lupa
Silalah google atau tonton youtube
Kadang baca pun tak faham
Cuba buat pun tak dapat
Ada juga yang berjaya discover sendiri 😁

Antara ilmu baru atau recall
- layer
- change gradient color from default version to get 3D look
- warp icon to edit object
- add effect
- default object from spray icon
- convert jpeg image to vector image using live trace

When it come to this I notice few things
I really
- focus doing it
- can stay for few hours and even stayed up till 3.30am
- keep on trying and make effort in producing the best that I could
- enjoy doing it
- happy with the end product
ALLHAMDULILLAH

Here were my menu for Saturday
Sup ayam guna apa ada je 😅

Menu for Sunday
Really love that sambal goreng jowo...
Idok le masaknya...belilah

Menu for Monday
Ulang sup ayam+banyak daun sup n daun bawang+bawang goreng

Maka sia-sialah gementar

Hari jumaat...
Pepagi dah kalut
Dalam emel meeting 9am
Tapi 9am masih di rumah  😰
Kali ini meeting di cawangan lain
Dekat je ...around 15 minutes drive

Bila sampai call la kawan
Alih2 dia pun tak tahu ada meeting tu 😂😂😂
So masuklah I ke bilik meeting dengan rasa malu kerana lewat...
I jadi wakil my team leader coz she is on leave..
Adoi dah sesi taklimat ada sesi penyampaian dokumen pula mcm terima hadiah...
Wakil to other colleague pun musykil...
Tak pernah ada majlis penyampaian ginu 😅
Nervous giler I....
Guess what????
Alih2 nama kawan I tak dipanggil 😅😅😅
Tak ke sia-sia I nervous tu

Habis meeting pi printing shop
Alhamdulillah our documents dah siap.
Tapi total cost for RM1600 😭😭😭
Saja tanya...kot boleh bayar later.
Yeay boleh....so by wednesdaylah

Nyinggah makan di Resepi Rahsia
Konon apatah...prawn aglio olio

Tapi udang tiga ekor je 😰
Tu pun frozen prawn 😠
Harga lepas gst mcm serupa je

Balik rumah
Migraine lah pulak
Tapi petang tu sempat lagi mengadap crispy chicken salad 😅😅😅...

Dah lewat petang pi survey new toy
Tak banyak tanya terus ambil 😅
Coz memang kena beli
Tapi still kena consider the price, functions and design
Then pi beli MedMax KFC lagi
Kali minta extra the spicy melted cheese

Malam...plan nk buat keroje hanya tinggal plan je lah....

Masak lomak cili api jering tuo

Hari sabtu...
Sepatutnya pagi I pi poslaju n ambil parcel
Then pi kemas ofis
dan baiki a part of project proposal
Hmm...tapi faham2 je lah...

Bila tengahari terfikir nak buat facial treatment...
Dah cuci dan scrub...
Pi tenyeh lemon...
Then, buat facial mask guna tomato yg almost lembik...

Bila letak mask...
Confirmlah kena baring...
Bila baring...tidurlah apalagi 😅...
Tapi nak habaq...kulit terasa segar selepas itu 😊😊😊

Menu berbuka I macam2 ada...

Ada masak lomak cili api jering, rendang hitam daging, begedil dan sambal ijo...
Lauk bazar ramadhan from friday lah 😀...
Tengoklah portion dan jenis makanannya...
Nasi tu bergenggam-genggam kan....
Semata-mata nak perabih leftover mug rice....
😂😂😂
Menangis kot my ex-coach melihatnya...

Moreh pi makan tepung pelita paya jaras pula...Sedap tapi lembik nau....

After tarawih...barulah I mulakan misi menambahbaik proposal dan cari bahan juga. Tu pun terkial2 till 12.30pm. I memang kagum dengan senior walaupun busy...tapi dia berjaya hantar her part pagi tu. Bagus pula tu...comprehensive. Dont worry with our weakness...kita belajar dari org lama ya 😍😍😍....

Dah ngantuk...tapi Movie Conjuring 2 tu best pulak...Maka stay up till 2.30am 😅....
Lepas tu...padanlah muka I...
Terlepas sahur 😰....

Around 8.30am..I kemas dapur
And cuci semua bekas air...
I takde bottle brush
Jenuh goncang guna beras 😀...

Then, after that till 12.30 I pulun tambahbaik proposal...I know it is not perfect but at least better version than the one on friday...
Lega bila dah email to the leader...

Lepas tu apalagi sesi rehat, tv, tenet dan tidorlah....
Pulak tu misi mengupdate blog..siap backdated 3 post kot lagi 😂😂😂

I berbuka dengan timun, tomato dan leftover rice and lauk...rendang hitam daging, rendang kerang dan sambal ijo...

Semasa sedang makan baru perasan yg rendang daging tu banyak...
Yang berlebih tu nak simpan semula tp dah dicuit
Nak buang sayang
So senak perut perabih 😅

Dah solat terawih dan mengaji
Rehat jap...
Baru terhegeh2 basuh baju
Sambil2 tu moreh dengan buah dan tepung pellta 😅....

Kini busy kembali

Pagi senin proceed with bills n receipts sorting.
Then rushed to work for a meeting about updating the document that we have been working on since 2015. Many parts to be updated to make it inline with the qualification document and current trend. However we have to postpone in updating certain part of it while waiting for new infos from another team.

Then I rushed back home to pick up my handphone...I could not live without my other half 😂😂😂....Once arrived, I saw two district council labours taking a break after cutting down the trees. They looked tired. I just asked them why did they cut the trees? Hmm...someone made a complaint about the trees...awatlah dengki dengan pokok tu bang oi...They also did not understand why someone did so because both trees are more than 10 metres from houses.

When I was inside my house I feel bad that I do not have anything to give them such as juice or mineral water. Quickly off I went to the nearest food truck and cafe to my house to buy drinks and nasi campur for both of them. Unfortunately later I found out actually there were 4 of them...Maaflah bang korang share jolah yo 😅😅....

Then I prepared the paperwork for running a workshop. Unfortunately there was a new format for the approval part 😅....Whatever it was I managed to get the approval from my boss and submit it to the top management before lunch break. Alhamdulillah...

After considerable thought and asking around I made decision to apply one of the fund offered by our organisation...Just grab this beneficial opportunity.

Next..I just focused on finding materials and updating the so called delayed document....I think I lost my writing mojo. Later I had this kembung 3 rasa, kailan ikan masin and watermelon juice for dinner...yummy...

At night I push myself to think of activities for my new project....

On tuesday I started to prepare the documents for that project. Despite mental block I managed to write one set of 6 activities. Alhamdulillah....Next I have to produce another 4 activities for the first set and 10 more activities for the second set....

Earlier I told my colleagues about my problem and lack of idea...I was worried that the activities are not relevant with the objectives and has no meaning....Whatever...just do it...Later I can discuss with my group members.

In between that definitely I have to do other tasks as well such as furiously chasing my customers. I hate when certain of them try to put the blame on me due to their slow progress, couldn't be bother attitude and wrong decision...I gave them option due to time constrain, so they should made their decision wisely. Whatever happens. they should face the consequence...

Materials from the internet are not enough for the document...accordingly I have to find the relevant materials at the bookshop. Once there I bought this account book as well for my side income 😁....

Dah alang2 ke situ maka terbelilah cheezilla kfc 😅😅😅😅 for dinner

My verdict...double cheese burger McD tetap dihati 😁

Plan je....

I balik rumah on Tuesday. Konon atas kesedaran nak buat project proposal tu. Tapi dah lunch...kekenyangan dan mengantuk pula. Eh...tertengok pula Youn's Kitchen 😅.

Takpelah petang kita beli coke n chips to stay up that nite to prepare the proposal...Tengok sat Syurga ke2. Now getting interesting when Sabrina turned psycho...Lafazkan kalimah cinta pula getting boring when Aqilah cemburu buta n asyiklah bersyak wasangka. Pleaselah...kenapalah nak tonjol watak negatif begitu. I missed the old aqilah with high spirit and fun...

Anyway...that nite when the time came to start with the proposal...hmmm....faham2 je la....

Too late

While I was a coordinator for a program two years ago,  I have developed certain calculation  system using excel.

Last year I planned to develop it properly and registered it to get the copyright. I even planned to make as android application.

I have totally forgotten about it until something came up this weekend. Thus, I planned to get the fund to upgrade that system and collaborate with IT friend as well as to attend a special course on developing android application.

And tonite I really surprised and dissappointed to know that certain party has grabbed that issue immediately and just launched the similar system as what I planned yesterday 😭.

No matter how upset I was...I have to accept it...it was not meant for me. Thing happens for a reason. Life must go on.

I learnt my lessons....
##whenever I am thinking of something I should do it ASAP to avoid any regret
##God punish me instantly if I did bad deeds.

Hutang 6 ribu?????

I called Bank Islam to change the billing address on 5/2/2013. Nak terjojol bijik mata bila dikhabarkan by the officer that my credit was RM6168. Camno boleh jadi gitu??? Astro for kampung tu biasalah I dok buat auto debit, but it just RM132.50. Risik punya risik antara penyumbang terbesar adalah I made RM3491.11~AUD1090  payment to uni on 3/12/12. Apa ek????? Owh...my accommodation fee for 6 weeks. Ya....sila percaya untuk 6 minggu sahaja. Baki tu I buat tambah sikit untuk beli PC and ada benda lagho opps.........Cuak sangat...haritu jugak I click maybank2u. Alih2 transfer limit RM3000 pulak. Logo acik, hari ini selamat bayar lagi separuh. Moralnya, janganlah berhutang dan silalah simpan duit selain berjimat/berhemah berbelanja. Habis tu camno pulak kan. Apo jo yang ado nak disimpan? camno nak bayar yuran kalau tak berhutang? Manolah nak tinggal nanti kan. Sib baik ado credit card tu ha...........Dah namo eh menyaro hidup sendiri. Sendiri buat sendiri tanggunglah kan :(.

So, silalah insaf dan pandai-pandailah jaga budget ya. So isnin malam, check my spending. Sangat sakit hati bila my account tak balance grrrrrrrrrr. Luckily progress I ok sikit during the day. Bolehlah siap 2 paragraph kat intro for my paper dan godek2 theoretical background. Serupa bibik jugak bila sibuk menyental bilik air, menyapu dan iron baju setimbun. Selasa???? Hmm.........I dok ngadap lappy, buat entry for 'diari'...huish jenuh perah otak n belek sana sini dok mengingat. Then, malam sibuk iron seluar yg kurang sikit timbunannya hehheh. Susah betul nak ambil mood nak jenguk my simulation, selain nak draw figure using adobe. Nampaknya perancangan ke laut............

Dalam pada kesempitan, ada rakan baik hati belanja makan haritu. Alhamdulillah, rezeki jangan ditolak :)))). Sedap pulak tuh.....Ada tomyam, prawn/mango salad and duck with spicy sauce

and for desert we had this .....

Semangat membara

Okay..okay...stay focus.
Run simulation, prepare the article and try to get it all done before 20/2/2012.

Apa-apahal, kita makan dulu... eh?

Returns....

After:

Before :

What a hectic day....
6.30am- busy with food preparation.
8.30am -mengejar bas....
9am-hmm...I lambat sampai rupanya. Mereka telah mula pun. Takpelah ramai yang membantu, saya hanya tolong tengok.

 10.30am
-it's done but we really scared. Hope for the best. Then, bolehlah pi jenguk opis setelah sekian lama. Pi jumpa clerk pasal binding. Owh the other staff can do it for me. But she'll be back next wednesday. But the clerk said that if I am anxious about it, she can send it to the shop.
11.30am
-dah mula tak fokus. I still got cold. Perlu balik segera. Tapi sempat posing dan pastinya senget bahu angkut buku ke library seperti gambar atas.
12.15pm
-sampai rumah, soru dulu, then makan panadol...terus boom................Bangun tido...I got headache and felt so weak. Pelik, bukannya makin baik, tapi getting worse pulak....lenguh satu badan ya jugak. Maybe due to summer heat too.  Ni pasang kipas ok sikit rasanya. Kalau by next monday tak ok, memang kena ke klinik juga, walaupun doktor bukan check pun, sentuh pun tidak. Prescribe panadol gak, bukannya ada antibiotik. Consultation fee lain, ubat lain. I can only claim 60% of the consultation fee from the Health cover. Di saat sibuk ngan tesis la, sakit pulak, lama pulak tuh.... Hmm..habis bila lah nak jenguk my last project ??? Dugaan sungguh....Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan.

When things fall apart...

I really hope that she returned that precious thing to me last Friday, as what she said on Wednesday last week. Then we can fill in the related form together this Monday. So, this Thursday or  Friday might be the day. Unfortunately, by Friday midnight last week I got nothing from her. Okay, be positive. Maybe, she need longer time together with high power magnifying glass to have a look at that precious thing.

I went to see her excitedly on Monday. She dropped a bombshell  by stating that she will return it bit by bit by this Friday.....yup this Friday. So...how?...when is the day? In fact, she will be on holidays for 2 weeks starting from 23rd December.

Kerana aku, Pakcik bekerja during weekend

Adoyai...weekend yang memenatkan. Kononnya nak baca draft thesis denga teliti. Alih2 sibuk ngan article. Hari Sabtu,  Pakcik Adelaide hantar dua email...satu pasal thesis

F, I think this is what you want to say :.........., but double check with N. I will go through abstract etc and send on Monday. Cheers, J.

satu pasal article

Thanks F, paper looks good and I will get back in touch if I see any typos.

Many thanks, J.

Apapun, I pulunlah siapkan corrections for my article, from sentences to typo, figure and 4 tables....Ada 10 corrections too. But still ada yang I tak tahu camna nak baiki............

Ahad pun masih nak cari idea camna nak analyse data tuh dan write a lil' bit about it in the article's abstract. Serabut.....tapi kelakar, dapat idea kat toilet...tak senonohkan. Then luckily tak keluar pi woolies cari buah. Pukul 12.57pm, pakcik pulak hantar email,

F, here is just the abstract with some very minor corrections. I will try to send more tomorrow.

However, I think it is starting to look good.

Best wishes, J.

So at 7.14pm, hantarlah the latest abstract to Pakcik.

Then at  9.35pm, hantar pula corrections to the editor :).

Kemudian, barulah boleh berehat sambil menonton action movie Salt lakonan Angelina Jolie :). Tak jugak berehat..sambil lipat baju la. Tapi, of course my kanda

"pot pet..pok pek...cerita itu, camni....kenapa ya.....stupid movie...."

Dia yang tengok dulu, dia yang tanya I kenapa.

Dia yang kata stupid movie, dia tetap stay tune till the end hahahha.

Yang pastinya, I dengar apa dia cakap, tapi I tak faham coz mata I fokus di tv hahahhah..............Hmm, kesian je la dia pok pek............

Oklah nak pi uni, tapi hujan huhuhu.

update at 10.28am:
Berdebar semacam...macam aku lak nak ambil keputusan UPSR. Semoga buah hati jantung pisang ;), my beloved nephew berjaya with flying colours :)

Nak nangis-sengih-Nak nangis.........

Semalam pi uni, ingat nak jumpa spv jenguk bilik yileks..........Salah I juga coz tak email nak jumpa. Biasalah bila takut nak jumpa, elok pulak her door wide open hahahha........

So, email je lah my spv pasal x-spv di Adelaide who still didn't return certain part of my thesis after second correction since 16/10/2012. Dia suruh contact je pakcik tu...Yelah I ni takut juga orang kata tak grateful. Pakcik tu yang sangat bz pun sanggup baca my thesis, ni karang kalau sesibuk tanya risau juga kalau dikata pushy.....Ok fine, I pun hantar email tanya pasal thesis tuh...........Tau apa dia reply

F, send me the latest version and I will try to read over the weekend. Best wishes, J.

I tak sedap hati. So, I searched his name in my email inbox..........Ya Allah!!!!....I didn't notice his third email on 16/10/2012. Tak tahu nak cakap camna....tapi memang rasa nak hantuk kepala kat dinding.  Just imagine..I wasted 1 month due to my carelessness and maybe silly mistake. Lagi sakit hati...kekecewaan tuh tak dapat dilepaskan...rasa nak nangis, tapi tak leh nangis. Redha je la. Cuba sedapkan hati dengan ...Thing happens for a reason. Tarik nafas...Kita cecepat buat 5 pages corrections. Alhamdulillah, sebelum maghrib berjaya hantar to pakcik Adelaide.

So, senang hati nak balik rumah memalam buta walaupun hujan lebat. Balik rumah grrrrrrr...nantilah cerita. Tetiba 11.50pm, macam tak percaya dapat email ni.

Dear F,

 

Thank you for your excellent contribution to Journal of ......................

 

Attached is the typeset chapter which you submitted to American Scientific Publishers.

 

Please answer all queries if there are any attached.

Wah dalam hati ada taman....At last after 8 months...penantian memang satu penyiksaan. Ku ingatkan Chief editor dah tercicir my article, yelah this paper was accepted on March 2012. Musykil gak kenapa masih tak published lagi. Tapi....tapi tetiba bunga yang mekar di taman menjadi layu dan daun pun ikut luruh

Please review carefully and reply all back in 48 hours with corrections you may need.

Kan weekend. Terkubur hasrat nak pi ngap Pancake on The Rock dan pi Paddys market oppps...So duduk di rumah diam2 ya. Selain, spv mestilah tak buka email to proof read that article. Pulak tu only last week while reading my draft, I noticed there's something wrong with the parameters that I used for that project. So, definitely kena run new simulation and got slight different numerical data.........Serabut, takut spv marah, risau editor bengang....Whateverlahkan...daripada I bebel  sini baik I cecepat buat pembetulan.

Mana hilangnya kuah si lodeh itu

Hari Ahad tengahari, malas betul nak masak. Korek2 fridge jumpa sekeping leftover pizza. Mana cukup, so buatlah salad, tambah dengan nachos dan salsa.....

 Senja pulak sambil tengok Willy wonka and the choc factory(chet! ingatkan yang ada Johny Depp, rupanya version 1971), I masak kuah lodeh. Dah masak, alihkan dari stove. Tinjau semula...kuah yileks......Ketupat segera tak masak lagi, kita makan lodeh gitu aje, owh letak lebihan serunding ikan hehehheh..............

Macam2 ada...tempeh, suhun, dried beancurd, fried beancurd, kobis, kacang, karot n cili hijau :).

Pagi senin barulah dapat rasa ketupat+lodeh. Tapi, macam kurang rasa lah. Tengok Filipino tu pun terkulat2 makan heheheh. Then I pi naik atas bilik, cari rendang pes nak bagi dia. Masa I turun tangga, I dengar bunyi plastik. Hmm...ntah2 dia nak buang my lodeh tu hehehe...Tetiba je dia muncul kat tangga. Tak ke pelik, dia tau I nak turun, awat dia pi kat tangga hahhah...again whatever lah.

 Tetiba terfikir nak buat lontong goreng. Jenguk recipe kat myrecipe dll...tapi macam biasa hanya cuba mengingat bahan tanpa salin recipe dan sukatannya. So bantai aje. Memula tumis bawang merah+halia+udang kering yang dah ditumbuk, then masukkan cili serbuk 2 sudu. Dah pecah minyak, masukkan segenggam daging cincang, 2 sb kicap, 2 sb sos tomat, 1 sb sos cili, 1 sb sos tiram+ garam. Bila di rasa, I tak berapa suka, pulak tu halia pun tak masak grrrrrrr....Tapi I pun tak tahu rasa sebenar lontong goreng, coz tak pernah makan pun hehehhe. Hmm..I tambah 2 sb rempah kari, dan 1 sb kicap. Eh! I lupa letak bawang putih hehehhe...cecepat letak 1 sb minced garlic. Nak kasi rempah masak betul, tambah airlah. Bila dah rasa ok, curahkan 2 1/2 gengam ketulan ketupat segera. Gaul hingga sebati, then tabur 2 sb bawag goreng. Then ketepikan di satu bahagian pan. Next, pecahkan 2 bj telur kat satu bahagian lagi dan kacau2 hingga masak. Akhirnya gaulkan semua. Then masaklah menjadi..............

 

Malam tu bagi kanda rasa. Katanya tak pernah dengar pun hehehe. I pun baru tahu last year kewujudan lontong goreng ni hehehhe. Ok, satu lagi gambo ;).....

Harini, busy bebeno...
Pagi:
Terpaksa run new simulation coz ada perubahan sedikit pada parameter. Tapi tak tahu file yang mana grrrrrrrrrrrr. Bila tengok latest folder...empty pulak, grrrrrrrrrrrr. So, gunalah je lah file dari second last folder, dan ubahsuai parameternya.

Tengahari:
Tak boleh jadi ni...artikel dan my work berterabur atas carpet dah 3 hari..sampai susah nak jalan, selain hanya ada ruang kecil untuk solat. Sebagai bekas pengidap OCD, aku rasa sangat rimas dan tak bolehlah nak buka tesis, selagi tak kemas artikel dan my work tu. So, sortlah sikit2.
Stress with articles sorting, kita jenguk simulation.
Berpinau ngan simulation, kita sort semula............

5.24pm:
berjaya sort jadi begini.............betapa buruknya my writing

Tengok pun taukan, tak habis lagi sebenarnya hehehhe..........Tu baru satu file je.
Oklah sikit, baru boleh bernafas hehhehhe.....

Maka bolehlah vakum bilik ...........

5. 45pm:

Keluar pi Asian store and Woolies

6.50pm-8.30pm:

Sampai rumah, teruslah menyiapkan bahan2 dan masaklah..apalagikan :P.

9pm:

Dinner with leftover food dan sambung masak lagi....

Apa yang I masak?

Kenapa begitu bersungguh memasak????

Hmmmmmmmm...tunggu jawapannya nanti....

Hahhaha...macamlah ada orang kisah kan ;).

11.27pm:

Tak reti2 nak buat kerja kan.........

Tapi...kat luar hujan...sedap tido ek...............

Update at 3.50am:

I tak boleh tido huhu....konon nak tido 12am. Tapi sukar nak lelapkan mata. Bila dapat tido asyik terjaga, tapi tak larat betul nak bangun. At last kuatkan diri gak untuk bangun dari buang masa terkebil-kebil...I rasa ni gara-gara terlebih dos EPO. Patutnya I makan 2 biji ubat resdung+1 kapsul EPO, tapi tadi berangan kot termakan 2 kapsul EPO :(.

Seaweed+coke=diarhea

Hmm..I dah tau punca kenapa I got diarrhea haritu. On early morning of friday last week I got diarrhea again. Puncanya kerana formula kat atas tuh. So, padanlah muka diarrhea due to junk food

Tu tengok tu my junk food store for thesis writing hahaha,  ada seaweed,coke, asam, coklat, sour squirm and chips hehehe. So, Padanlah muka. Orang seronok tidur, I kat toilet at 2am.

Tapi kena stay up lah kan, bukannya pasal diarhea tu. Tapi of course  I dok pulun menyiapkan abstract dan summary. Memula plan nak siapkan abstract dulu, baru type summary. Tapi bila rujuk thesis seniors, macam depa lagi banyak explanation in summary compared to abstract. So, abstract yg I dah siapkan hari rabu kot, rasanya perlu diubah menjadi summary :(. Actually tak tambah banyak pun dalam abstract tu. It more like combination of abstract for my four papers. So jika content abstract dah tukar jadi summary, apa yang perlu ditulis jadi abstract. Uwaa.....memang kena tulis banyaklah. kekejap tengok new summary tuh. Mana boleh samakan, redundant pulak. Tu pun kejap I rasa ayat tu sesuai kat abstrak, kejap I rasa ada ayat sesuai kat summary. Sampai naik keliru pulak antara summary dan abstrak. Dah tak larat sangat 4am i tidur. Luckily boleh bangun before 8am. Kalut dok siapkan abstract tuh. 9.40 dah siap kot. Alhamdulillah. Tapi perut still rasa tak selesa. So hantar email kat spv, cakap tak boleh jumpa. So hantar abstract and summary online. Tapi bagitau jugak dia yg kalau I ok, before 1 pm i akan hantar printed version of the whole thesis. Then I godek dok menambah sikit pasal history of one of the structure that I investigated. after 11, macam ok. Sempat lagi lunch nasi goreng tomyam, cooked on thursday nite.

Senang je, tumis hirisan thai hot fish cake, masukkan nasi, taburlah perencah adabi, kacau, then masukkan udang dan sayur hehehhe............EH! entah2 diarhea pasal perencah tu expiredkan. Hmm...tapi ni lepas tu saya ok je maksudnya bukan pasal nasi tu la kan.

Anyway, saya berjaya hantar printed version kat spv just few minutes after 1pm. Ingatkan dia takde, ketuk2 tak berjawab. Bila I cuba masukkan kertas bawah pintu, dia suruh masuk. La, she was having her lunch. rasa guilty sangat. Macam i ikut time I, bukan ikut time spv. Guess what dia kata dia dah semak my abstract dan letak dalam pigeoon hole. Lagilah saya rasa bersalah. Dahlah dia tu busy. Haritu out of office for two weeks dengan conference dan juga ada bengkel in Melbourne. Then hari jumaat petang tu dia ada colloqium, tapi pagi dia masih sempat check my work. So bila dah dapat ambil my stuff dari pigeon hole, I pun baikilah abstract dan summary tuh. of course banyak correction for abstractlah kan hahahha. Dah siap, at 2.45pm I hantar kat x-spv in Adelaide.

Owh lupa, my officemate cerita her spv nak jadi first author for all her papers. terukkan...alasannya coz her idea dan dia buat banyak corrections selain my friend's english is not good. Actually tak banyak pun ubah suai. Padahal, native speaker kat sini yang check her writing told my friend that her writing is good.   Dia boleh kata "I'm reluctant to let you as as first author". In fact she tried to make excuse that other student also become the second author. yeap, other students who are under her and her husband supervision only. Not those who are under other supervisors. I ni semua my papers, I'm the first author tau. Ingat dulu, masa memula tulis paper I letak nama my then spv, now x-spv as first author. Dia kata my name should be the first since I do the work. So, you see, kesian kawan I. Walaupun dia cakap sponsor dia meletakkan syarat dia as first author, spv dia tetap tak berubah fikiran. Then, both of them just keep quiet for 5 minutes. Kita yang dengar pun sakit hati, inikan pulak if we are in her shoes. Hmm...so berhati-hatilah ya...dengan spv dari negara Asia tuttttttt yg mempunyai Australia citizenship. Tapi tulah bila fikir balik mungkin lecturer tu perlukan student for her career. No wonderlah sekarang dia hanya ada my friend sorang tu je as phd student dan her brilliant student lari ke UTS dan dah published two papers with his name as the first authors. Kalau my x-spv tu mungkin dia tak kisah coz dia dah profesor and melambak papers, selain orang british ni integriti dia lain sikit kot.

Teringat last month, my spv nak present my paper yg kena reject tuh. I tak kisah pun. coz i pun takde masa, hati dan perasan nak present dalam waktu critical ni. Dia siap cakap she'll will put my name. Kalau dia letak as second author pun I redha coz dia banyak support I selain banyak bersabar dengan karenah I yg slow buat kerja nih.

Hari Sabtu pepagi tuh my x-spv replied my email and attached 5 pages of my chapter 1 that he has read and checked.  Ayo yo..almost very single sentence ada red marked. Selain diubah struktur ayat, I belajar satu perkara iaitu better guna plural instead of singular. Dan I berjaya submit pagi Isnin minggu ni. Then, my spv email suruh jumpa dia on Tuesday. Malam tu I susah betul nak tidur gara-gara sakit perut. Aduhhh.......rasanya angin. Pasai apa ye...no coke, maybe due to this....tapi gambar lama lah

 Tulah pasai, asal nak jumpa spv je sakit perut isk isk isk..........Anyway, semalam larat jugak I went to see her. Adalah beberapa beberapa perkara yang kami bincang. Macam tak percaya bila dia suruh I buat something. Mixed feeling between excited and worried...semoga dipermudahkan. Anyway, masih lagi kena buat banyak beberapa corrections terutamanya to make my thesis looks neater and consistent, selain menanti semakan from my x-spv. Tapi punyalah bengang, rupanya I tak lupa nak copy latest writing in my pen drive. So, kena balik awal la. Itulah haritu ada orang dah ajar how to link my office desktop tu my lappy at home, I tak buat. So padanlah muka kan. Anyway, on the way balik, I singgah fruit market membeli fruit selain sayurlah. Hmm...balik rumah, i tengok tempat sayur yang cinonit tuh, dah ada orang lain letak bunch of salad selain harituh dah ada letak several lemons and orange. Bayangkan small space for 3 people...owh ni gambar lama ya sebelum Iranian pindah masuk

Yang tempat besar tu kanda and American yang conquer. Bila haritu Iranian letak buah kot kat tempat tu kanda bebel. Kalau kat freezer, pun depa conquer. Ni gambar masa Iranian tu belum pindah masuk

Actually yang upper rack rendah sikit, selain kurang sikit kelebarannya. Bila yang atas dikuasai oleh American, so Iranian takde tempat. Dia adakalanya letak jugak kat bawah, depan tempat kanda. Marahlah kanda. Tu I cakap dengan kanda, susunlah barang dia yg banyak tu memanjang ke depan, instead of guna space si german tuh. So, takdelah orang nak guna her front space. Yang peliknya, si german tu tak kisah sesiapa nak guna space dia, yang kanda bising kenapa pulakkan. Dia pun guna space german tuh. Selalu bebel dengan I, dan I selalu cakap benda yang sama. Dia memang dari sebelum Iranian sampai dia dah cakap kat American tuh, tu clear the upper middle space. Tapi pepaham je lah American yang buat2 tak faham tuh, senag cakap self fish. Tapi bila jumpa Iranian tuh dia hanya suruh guna space atas. Tapi manalah minah tu nak letak barang American tuh. Lagipun dah kat bawah, ada ruang, y not dia gunakan. Yang bengangnya, kanda depan Iranian tu kononnya doesn't mind she moved her stuff or used her space. Tapi bila orang tu blah, boleh pulak dia bebel orang tu tak fikir space masa beli roti banyak2.....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Ni sat gi nak kemas meja, key in my budget, susun material for my thesis. Tadi my Philippines hmate baru balik shopping, dia borong banyak perfumes...rasanya dekat 10 bottles. Free gift pun dasyat dapat banyak you. Hmmm...I memang kena pi city petang ni, bakal terjebakkah????

New silver camera in spring

Yeay, my new camera....silver you

 

Every charm has its own story :)......

Yeap, symbol for unforgettable moment.............

Ok, dah dapat apa yang diidam sekian lama....so, now is the time to focus to my second project that I have been abandoning since 2010. Tadi dah submit latest version of chapter1 to x-spv :).

update at 6.35pm:
Ngantuks..jom kita main2 design kat
http://www.pandora.net/en-au/explore/inspiration/create-combine/bracelet-designer

 Hah yang warna warni tu bantai je, nak kasi naik seri.
Tapi kalau terus beli charms penuh camtu, makan pasirlah jawabnya kan.

Takpe, cukuplah sekadar 1/6 dari idaman hehhehe

Next, mungkin clock ni supaya belajar tepati masa dan habiskan study in this limited time

 Then, that cupcake lah kot. Suka baking kononnya hahhaha..........

 Next, graduation charms..Insya Allah. Sedang berusaha ke arah itu :).

 

 Lepas tu bolehlah beli handbag heheheh....

Berangan kan. Yang pastinya kenalah habiskan projek and writing dulu ;).

Udon Kelantan and mamak style

 This udon noodle was my menu for breaking fast on wednesday.

Tapi saya buat style laksam hehhe. Senang je, panaskan lebihan filling solok lada, tambah santan, garam, lada hitam dan sayuran. Then masukkan udon noodle yang telah dicelur. Sungguh enak bila ditambah sambal belacan yang ntah bila tuh hahhahah.

Then I had mamak style stir fried udon to break my fast yesterday.

Hahhah, tipu bukan style mamak pun. Perencahnya hanya curah sos cili ABC, sos tiram, sos tomato dan kicap.............sedap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Tau tak, semalaman tak tido tau. Hah ko! aku berjaga selama 18jam tu. Tu pun nak kecohkan. Sukahati I la :P.  Kalau tidak silap semalam saya bangun tidur at 9.30am dan berjaga hingga 6.30am today . Eh! jap saya lupa la, mlm tadi aku tido jap dari 8.30-9pm. Kekenyangan berbuka kot hehe. Kemudian sambil fening ngan thesis writing aku ditemani cerekarama kontrak cinta dan satu lagi tajuk apatah Lagi 7 hari kot. Selepas bersahur dan seterusnya solat subuh, barulah aku tidur. I set the alarm for 9.30am, tapi guling-guling atas katil sedar2 dah 11.30am. Tak tahan tengok bilik bersepah aku, kemas dulu. Sampai keyboard pun aku bersihkan. Dah cabut keys, lepas tu terkial-kial nak pasang hahahhah.

Tengok jam dah 12.30pm. Manalah sempat nak siapkan my writing. Maka, sekali lagi tak sempat jugak nak submit my third draft to spv :(. Takpelah janji dia tahu saya masih wujud di bumi OZ nih. Semalam dia email, mintak softcopy of my two previous papers. She has already got the soft copy for the latest paper. She wanted to review my three papers for a conference next month. Hmm, sepatutnya sayalah yang buat review kan, tapi tulah tesis ni buat hidup tak tentu hala :(. Kalau dia tak letak nama saya, SIAP!!!! Alamak paper yang kena reject haritu, saya masih belum submit to other journal. Kena cepat submit before she go to that conference. Nanti kang tak pasal2 kena reject due to plagiarism paper sendiri. My friend dah kena tau. Dia dah presented her paper in one conference and later submitted that paper to a journal. Tiba-tiba, the editor contacted her due to plagiarism issue. Yelah kan ada software to check this plagiarism hehhehe. So, dia kena ubahlah ayat2 dia. So bare in mind ya, it is better to publish the paper in journal first, then only present it in a conference :). Reputation and credibility as author kena jaga ;).

Memang serabutlah ngan thesis ni. Haritu Each project has their own chapter with their own theoretical background. But, after second draft my spv suggested to write all general formulas in new Chapter-Theoretical Background(CTB) to make the thesis neater and to avoid any repetition. Writing general formula meaning that I have to draw new figure, construct general model and solve it. And I tell you there are many models :(. To make matter worst AI, the software to draw figure has expired. So, I just draw the figure in Mword. Since I used latex to type my thesis, I have to convert the figure files doc to eps. Tulah kalau guna AI boleh terus save as eps je. Bila google luckily boleh guna online converter. So, jadi remeh. Draw figure in Mword-convert to pdf-snapshot the selected area-copy in Paint and save as jpeg-use online converter jpeg to eps. Memang boleh copy je figure from mword to Paint, tapi paint tak preserve certain features, so graphic tak smooth. Not only that I have to modify whatever I have written in all chapters for certain projects to match that new chapter, CTB.  The problem is sometimes I still have to to include the formulas in that chapters to match the specific figures and definitely for better description. Yelah nanti examiner/reader asyik kena selak page depan to understand certain chapter. So banyak buang masa kat situ, nak fikir how to write and how to arrange to avoid any repetition. Tu belum lagi latex yang giler, yang asyik2 kena save nama baru. Tak kuasa aku nak uninstall and reinstall. Selain tu, nak figure out benda-benda remeh macam nak buat footnote under table, nak pastikan ia sebaris..bla...bla...So dah buang masa pulak surf tenet mencari info tuh. Bila cuba tak dapat, kena google lagi grrrrrrrrrrr

Spring just started on 1 sept which was last saturday. Normally it still slight cool during early spring.  But it's really strange this time. It really warm for the past 2-3 days, just like summer. Semalam aku pakai baju nipis je bila ke city. Biasanya dulu still kena pakai cardigan. Luckily, it's windy today terasa nyaman di dalam bilik hehhehe. Owh! kenapa aku keluar ke city pun ada kisah jugak nak dibebelkan tau...

Oklah...nak turun mandi. Kat bawah dah senyap, tadi philipino hmate ada tetamu. Depa ni selalu je buat acara makan2.......

update at 3.40pm.
Baru je nak turun tadi, tetiba terdengar suara lelaki lain pulak kat bawah. Ingatkan hmate german pulak ada tetamu. Tapi macam pelik pulak dengar german hmate kecoh2 sangat. Lagi pelik bila dia terdengar dia cakap dengan dengan philipino hmate "We are living here, it's not a museum". Tapi rupanya ada accommodation staf and surveyor datang for inspection. The reason for this inspection is for government to know whether our rent is worth the accommodation condition or not. Staf tu nak masuk bilik aku, aku tak benarkan hehehhe...memanglah tadi dah kemas, tapi ada pinggan mee tu aku tak bawak turun semalam hehhehe.

Siti and me ;)

Kebetulan kami pergi tempat yang sama hehehhe

So, dapatlah duduk semeja ;). Jangan jealous tau :P.
Tapi di hari dan waktu yang berbeza la hehhehe.
Ni gambar asal siti hasil dari khidmat google

 Mana lagi kalau bukan di Madame Tussouds Sydney.

Saya pi awal bulan June dulu .....Dapat gak menjejak bintang tu

Di pertama macam ruangan discovery. Ruang ke-2 ada pemimpin dunia. So sempatlah kami jumpa Ghandi yang tetap maintai berselipar hehehhe

lepas tu Obama pulak ajak posing. I kira manja-manja posing gitu. Hah ko ada sorang guy ni siap letak kaki atas meja, kiranya dia boss Obama la hehhehe.

 Kalau tak silap di ruang ke-4 jumpa cermin ajaib ni hehehhe.......

Ada gak aku berskirt pendek bersama Rihanna dan berambut palsu bersama Marilyn Monroe yang tetiba skirtnya kembang ditiup angin. Tapi segan pulak nak letak sini hahhaha. Selain malas nak edit muka kan. Pastinya excited bila dapat hug Brad Pitt dan Angelina Jolie, walaupun sekadar patung lilin...

Begitu juga Keith Urban

dan wifey-Nicole Kidman

Seronok gak bila tengok gambar2 lama. Boleh mengubati hati yang tak tenteram dan kurangkan debaran menanti sesuatu yang sangat penting berkaitan my studies.

Oklah dah 1.44 am ni......Tak senonohkan ada ke patut tadi tetengah malam 12am pi minum A&W root beer...Oklah nak tido..Esok nak pulun buat kerja

Sambal sotong meletop vs Gangnam style

Hi there...Selamat pulang ke kediaman masing2 dan selamat kembali bekerja setelah bercuti panjang :). Say No to Monday blues ya ;)........

Sambal sotong podeh bona...bersudu2 brown sugar den lotak. Masak ni on saturday the 25th

Saja tambah tauhu hehehhe...nak perabih. Kepala sotong tu udoh rupa jari pulak ek. Hah jangan pulak lepas ni ada yang geli nak makan sotong :P. Masa dok reheat sambal dalam mwave, tetiba terdengar sambal ni meletop...ingatkan ring yang bersepai, rupanya tentakel yang bersepai hahahha. Tapi apsal la my sambal sotong kureng umph. Mungkin kurang minyak, so cili tak masak betul. Segan pulak nak tambah minyak depan western hmate yg particular about healthy food. Tak pernah pun masak guna sotong nih. Dulu guna sotong kering liat bebeno tu adalah. Saja google tengok resipi. Hahahah rupanya aku tak letak bawang putih. Ada juga resipi yg letak halia dan serai. Macam2 kan, ikut cara dan pilihan masing-masing.

Sebelum tu on 23/8, masak gulai ayam ni. Pun macam kurang rasa. Mungkin aku lambat letak santan, gara-gara malas naik ke bilik membongkar plastik.

Kobis cina tuh siat2 je, then campak lam mwave 2 minit. Sedap je cicah sambal belacan hehhehe. Belacan tu yang serbuk punyalah...........

Baru 7.13pm, tapi aku dah ngantuk. Agaknya terlebih junk food hehehe. Ngantuk pun kena stay up. Kan kena siapkan kerja nak jumpa spv esok..........

Psst..tadi buka blog hiburan. Ternampak video ni....Best giler famili ni, sporting and happening habis. Mesti sakan dan meriah raya. Jealous lah dengan depa......



Siap masuk astro awani tuh. Baru 2 hari dah ada 129, 486 views.
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Pelik jugak, apa kebenda Gangnam style nih....apalagi gunalah khidmat google. Rupanya nilah video asal hehhehe...........Patutlah jadi viral and got many parody.....



 Setakat yang saya tengok sudah 59, 505, 033 viewers. Hilang ngantuk, tersengih-sengih jadinya......

Brekky, lunch and dinner with nasi lomak

Melantak tak hingat kan.....

Rasanya, nilah first time aku makan nasi 3 kali sehari di OZ hehhehe....Teruk kan, nafsu makan besar selepas Ramadhan. Sepatutnya terus amalkan beserderhana atau kurangkan makan. Malah pada raya ke-4, 22/8/12 seeloknya dah mula puasa ganti dan puasa 6, tapi pepaham je la I ni kan ;).

Psst......sambal tu zaman bila punya tah. Aku reheat dalam microwave je hahahha......Semasa brekky, my philipino dok makan mee goreng Indomee. Aku dok ngap dia punya Indomee, dia pulak suka ngap aku punya bilis cicah sambal hehehe. Menu brekky kami sangat beza dengan menu our german hmate, she only took a cuppa coffe and yogurt+wheatbix. Patutlah slim melim, dah la rajin swimming........

Semalam, aku pi uni. At last manage submit C1-2 to my spv. Ketuk2 pintu tak dok, terus I slipped the draft under her door. Cecepat lari heheheh pi jumpa kanda yg almost lose her patient waiting for me. Kami perlu bergegas ke England

 kemudian, berjumpa a knight from Kiwi land

Teringin juga berjumpa Italian

dan gadis-gadis Sri lanka yg angun menawan

The orange Netherland pun patut disinggahi..............

Selepas, lengkap pasport ke serata dunia, boleh lah dapat baju free hehhee.........

Balik ofis rasa mual pulak, mungkin gara-gara terlebih gula-sama ada gulah Pakistan atau kerana candy floss atau nougat dari Iranian. Lepa stu tak sedar diri pi beli coke yang lagi berganda-ganda gulanya hahhaha.

Harini malas nak pi uni. Tetiba tengahari dapat email dari spv, dia bagitau a da few comments for my chapters. So she wants to see me after lunch today or else Monday. Definitely I opted for monday hehhehe. Aku pun dah set target nak submit C4 and 5 on Monday. C3 later-banyak benda nak tambah. C6 pulak...kena siapkan projeknya lah dulu. Hope I can meet my new target...insya Allah.

Actually, bila dah sampai peringkat kami ni, memang perasaan bercampur baur. That's why sometimes I prefer to be alone. Certain of my friends got that feeling too. Misalnya I got this message from somebody......

........................ i think the focus should be on ourself right now. i also cannot manage myself emotionally, spiritually n finanncially. hukhukhuk..thats why dont want to bother anyone