I Dont Need a Man

Let kick start the week with sumthing catchy ..



Miss A - I Dont Need A Man

English Translation:

This is for all the independent ladies
Let’s go

I can live well without a man
So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me
I don’t sell myself easily because
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man
I can live well without a man

I pay my rent with my money
I buy my own food, I buy my own clothes
It may not be enough but I know how to be satisfied
That is why I love myself (hey)

I don’t want to spend my parent’s allowance as my own
I’m too old for that
Isn’t it a given to not be burdensome to them?
That is why I am proud of myself (hey)

Boy don’t say
“I’ll take care of you, I’ll cherish you” no no
Boy don’t play
If you’re not gonna come with a serious mind

I can live well without a man
So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me
I don’t sell myself easily because
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man
I can live well without a man

Being cocky won’t work with me
I don’t know about anywhere else
I may not be as well off as you but
I overflow with confidence
That’s why I love myself (hey)

I want to take care of myself
The other girls may have rich parents or a rich boyfriend
And live comfortably but I’m not interested in that
That is why I am proud of myself (hey)

Boy don’t say
“I am your future, trust and lean on me” no no
Boy don’t play
If you’re not gonna respect me

I can live well without a man
So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me
I don’t sell myself easily because
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man
I can live well without a man

I wake up early every morning
And I’m busy all day
I don’t even eat a proper meal
But I do this because I like it
The money may be little but it’s from my own sweat
This isn’t a ring that a boyfriend bought me
My car, my clothes – I bought it all on my own
I bought them after putting money into savings, after giving allowance to my parents
If you trust men, what will you do when they leave you?
Are you jealous of me?
If you’re jealous, you lose

I can live well without a man
So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me
I don’t sell myself easily because
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)
I don’t need a man I don’t need a man
I can live well without a man

Romanized:

This is for all the independent ladies
Let’s go

Naneun namja eobsi jal sara
Geureoni jasini eobseumyeon
Nae gyeote ojireul ma
Naneun hamburo nal an para
Waenyamyeon nan
I don’t need a man
I don’t need a man (what?)
I don’t need a man
I don’t need a man (jinjja)
I don’t need a man
I don’t need a man (jeongmal)
I don’t need a man
I don’t need a man
Naneun namja eobsi jal jal sara

Nae doneuro bangse da nae
Meokgo sipeun geo sa meokgo otdo sa ipgo
Chungbunhajin anchiman manjokhal jul ara
Geuraeseo nan nareul saranghae (hey)

Bumonimui yongdon nae doncheoreom
Sseugo sipji anha naiga manha
Son beolliji annneun ge dangyeonhan geo anya
Geuraeseo nan naega tteotthteotae (hey)

Boy don’t say
Naega chaenggyeojulge naega akkyeojulge no no
Boy don’t play
Jinjihage ol ge animyeon

Jallan cheneun andwae ttan deseoneun
Tonghalji mollado neomankeum nado
Jallajin anhatjiman jasingameun neomchyeo
Geuraeseo nan nareul saranghae (hey)

Nae himeuro salge ttan aecheoreom
Bumonim jal manna namja jal manna
Pyeonhage saneun geo gwansimi eobseo
Geuraeseo nan naega tteotthteotae (hey)

Boy don’t say
Naega neoui mirae nareul mitgo gidae no no
Boy don’t play
Nareul jonjunghal ge animyeon

Maeil achim iljjik ireonaseo
Haru jongil bappaseo
Bap han kki jedaero mot meogeo
Hajiman naega johaseo han iriya
Doniya jakjiman da nae ttamiya
Namja chinguga sa jun banji aniya
Nae cha nae ot naega beoreoseo san geoya
Jeokgeum neoko bumonim yongdon
Deurigo naseo san geoya
Namja mitgo nolda
Namja tteonamyeon eotteokhal geoya
Ireon naega bureowo?
Bureoumyeon jin geoya

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Kenapa susah sangat aku nak lupakan dia? Kenapa aku tiba-tiba jadi sgt rindu pada dia? Aku penat lah, berperang dengan perasaan...aku sgt2 penat...

mesej 01

aku stayback kat ofis harini. sbbnye ade dateline. pastu tetibe aku rindu kat seseorg. dem. aku marah kat diri sendri kot. sbb dah janji pada diri sendri takleh rindu2 dah kat mr.x. tp camne ar? tgh bz2 wat keja pun boleh jd lagi rindu? so aku cite kat team aku yg still tgh wat keja lagi pasal mr.x. cite same spt ape yg still fresh dlm memori. esp. the day kami berdua naik motosikal di tengah mlm di kg bongor, grik.jgn speculate ok! ade skit misscommunication, so die kena hanta aku balik ke umah keluarga angkat aku. along the way he had said sumthing, n aku pun kan blur, so cam tak respon lebih2.

n till today aku still igt lg mlm tu. pas abis aku cite. diorg marah aku sbb tak tggu je mr.x. aku cakap aku takut tak dpt terima kenyataan, kalau die dah berubah hati.

n at the same time, pas abis cite tu aku pun marah dgn diri sendri sbb tak bg respon yg septtnya masa mlm tu. yelah, kalo aku cakap aku pun ske ko. maybe tak secomplicated hidup aku camni. maybe aku dah terlambat kot. now. maybe patut terima ajakan diorg pegi "fishing kat pond yg lebih lucrative" kot.

nama

last week bday mr.x. aku ade ajak die dtg rumah terbuka, tp katenye die dah lame plan getaway. tatau laa kat mana. n dgn sape. yg pasti jauh.

so biasa la. bila aku x dpt kepastian n pada masa yg sama aku malu nak bertanya. mula la byk soalan2 berlegar2 dlm otak nie. sumenye pk yg bukan2 je. sebenarnya nie bukan pasal trust issue, sbb kami bukan dalam relationship yg relevan dgn 'trust' nie. aku rasa nie sume lebih kepada rasa insecure. 

aku rase x perlu  aku tanye diri sendri nape aku rasa insecure,  sbbnya  aku sendri telah memerangkapkan diri dlm relationship yg tah pape nie. n mungkin juga sbb aku mmg ske pk lebih2. walhal jadinya tak tentu lagi.

kenape relationship yg tah pape?  sbbnye - relationship nie tak bernama. bersifat atas pagar. dan byk berunsurkan main tarik tali antara dua pihak. bile aku pk nak namekan relationship  as a friendship.aku takut pegi jalan mati. tp sebenarnya aku yg degil dan saja2 buat2 tak paham akan hakikat kebenaran ayat nie: "kalo dah jodoh tu tak ke mana."

selepas aku buang masa 2-3 hari pk die pegi mane n dgn sape, dan 3-4 aku pk2 hala tuju hal ini. aku pun buatlaa keputusan utk mengambil tindakan. memandangkan mr.x nie pun agak ayam nak bersemuka dgn aku. (mungkin die rasa takde pape yg perlu dibincang), jadinya aku pun anta mesej panjang lebar dekat die melalui whatsapp. adelah setengah jam pk nak karang ape. akhirnye aku tekan send tanpa hesitation. dan aku rasa pale otak aku dah ringan. seriusli.

mesej tu mmg panjang. tp tadekla sepanjang karangan upsr bebudak nie. kate dewasa, so kenala menulis cara org dewasa. caranye : aku bg intro skit (wish bday)  pastu aku tambah intro2 plak. baru aku tembak isi utama n bagi penutup.

btw.  isi utama mesej tu adelah aku memberi nama pada relationship nie.

dan nama yg aku beri adalah:

"FRIENDSHIP"

(utk itu, aku ucapkan tahniah pada diri sendri) chills~

last chance

sometimes i wish Mr.X read my blog. but the thought of him browsing thru some of the entries whereby i rant about other guys made me grateful that he didn't. :p

lately, i started to be in touch with Mr. X again. Why? Well, i dont have answer for that. It just happened that whenever i feel very sad or unhappy, i end up sharing it with him. though he's not that good with giving advices, but he is a good listener.

Btw, i noticed that Mr.X  had changed. Maybe bcoz  it had been like so many months we had not contacted each other.Now, he's bit jual mahal. haha.

Nway, I'm giving ourselves a last chance. If Allah permits, alhamdulillah. If not, it is ok. We can always be frens like last time.. :)

Mr. X bday?

Yesterday was his 25th Bday..me still in MC mood..the flu is getting better but the migraine isnt..actually..i got something for his bday..but then..he's been soo busy than ever..soo..i just couldnt find the rite time to meet him..soo..i just sent him a voice sms 1st(hahaha..just imagine..me baru je bangun tido n terus nyanyi lagu bday)..btw..today till i dunno when..he'll be out station..hurmm..with other female colleague(am i jealous?? nope..sbbnye lately..aku dah start berserah pd Allah) having constantly thinking about him is unbearable to me now..as i'm having sooo many family problem + quarter life crisis to think of rite now..but i must admit that i'm a bit terkilan as i wouldnt got the chance to break fast with him this year..as he told me that he'll only be back for a while during raya..hurm..tunggu lagi?? (is it a worthwile for me to wait??..i think it is..well..at least rite now)

p/s: nway..got myself a deadline for him..:p

complicated me..

yesterday..the fever n flu had made my life more complicated..i know my bff will asked me..why on earth i did that thing while she had alr. advised me on how should i faced him..but i dunno..yesterday i just lost my patience..being unknown of what had happened..why he didnt return my calls or my sms..while i'm having this fever n flu(while i desperately need to hear his voice..comforting me)..i'd sent a sms to him:

Sori 4 the calls(been trying to call him since last mth)..just pelik ko tak return calls..ko ok ke? ke bz sgt?..or aku ade buat ko marah ke?(am really wondering about this) How's the teraphy?(referring to his slipped disc) If there's still no reply from u..assume this is my last sms n call..

anyway..i was determined enuff to send him the sms..waited for him to reply till midnite..but there's no reply..so i concluded that he had already made up his mind..n i accepted it..well..life goes on..there's nothing to be regretted..as falling in love wif sumbody is one of the best thing that could happened in our life..and being hurt by that sumbody is just opposite of it..it was just a balancing figure after all..chill~

. . .

Where is Mr. X? After a month (w/o any sms or calls), I’ve give up and send a sms to him (which later I regret as there is no return calls or reply from him). Maybe he is outstation or maybe not. Anyway, I decided to wait for few more weeks. If still nothing happens, so takat tu jelah..ok?

Mr. X lagi?

Mr. X mcm cookies..kejap ade n kejap tadek..bile sms die yg gile kerja tu..kalo nasib baik..akan direply within 5 minutes..kalo kurang baik..maybe 1 month after that..or langsung tak direply..skang nie..agak ok skitlaa..sbb bile dah sms..biasenye..die terus call..maybe tak bz kot..nway..sbnrnye..xdelaa dah head over heels ngan Mr.X nie..sbbnye..last time when we went out together..he happened to tell me that he preferred to ' tak yah bercinta..terus kawin'..soo..i did the math..whether berbaloi ke tak..sbb seriously..bukannye teringin nak cinta yg terlalu lovey dovey cam my sis..just nak ade good memories yg boleh buat kite tersenyum sendri bile kite teringat..it just that bile terase nak tarik diri dr ter'fall in love' with Mr. X..mule teringat that he almost fitted my "I'm hoping that my Mr. Right is sumone who.."(act 8/10)..soo..dah jd reluctant..and indecisive..and tak pasal2 dah memigrainekan kepala aku..sengal..

p/s: nasib baik Mr. X tak tahu kewujudan blog nie..

Get well soon, Mr. X !

Yesterday, Mr. X called me. He told me that he was diagnosed with slipped disc. I was a bit shocked (i wasnt really sure what is slipped disc, but I'd heard about it once and it didnt seem good as it involved the spinal). But then, after he explained to me, i felt a bit relieved. He have to attend the physiotherapy and lets pray that he will be ok after the theraphy (though he didnt mention this to me..but I know, he's afraid that this will effect him) Dear Mr. X, as much as you always wishing the best for me, I'm also had been doing the same thing for you, so there's nothing to worry, just try your best !

p/s: Nway to those who happened to know Mr. X, please keep this to yourself, until he breaks the news to you all.

Me and Mr. X part 1

It’s Chinese new year..so no wonder once I stepped into the metro bus..all what I can said, ”OMG..ramainye mat2 B* and I*!”. Lucky, I didn’t have to go straight to KL with them. Is not that I’m being prejudice. It just that I didn’t feel safe at all as 98% of them is men. Well, at warta lama (my interchange station), the situation is exactly the same as in the bus. Then I who had a very light breakfast started to feel nauseous (any crowds would make me sick!!) Manage to control myself from throwing out at the bus stop and took a cab to KLCC. (Jalan Kuching – KLCC =RM11)

It was about 10 minutes before the show started. Gosh, I’m late. Very2 late (but who cares, this is just an outing nadia, not a date) I’ve quicken my steps while hoping that Mr. X had bought at least a mineral water before we going in. Then, I saw him with cap and sunglasses (hurm..perlu ke? Ke sbb nak nyorok? Wallahualam), smiled at him and make a quick check up on him from head to toe (especially tgn die..but there’s nothing!) As I was late, and the show is about to started, I thought it was wiser for me to just go in with him. Anyway, we watched cj7 (it was my first time watching Chinese film at cinema and the tickets was courtesy of him.Tq!)

Later, he treated me lunch (he said that I’m a student, so he should belanje me. So, thanks again!). Weird enough, soon after the movie ended, I felt very hungry but at the end I barely ate anything (I bought mee curry, but I only ate the tofu+the fish fillet+1/2 of the mee portion). Is not that I segan or anything, but the gravy didn’t meet my expectation.

Having a quite heavy discussion (but not about us or anything related to that). Discussed about our careers, our (own) future planning, other peoples’ life (sempat gossip lg tu). Though, it was a quick lunch, (he had to go back to work, can you believe that?) but at least some of questions that I’d badly wanted to ask him had been answered without having me to ask him first. Thanks to the boss, our outing had to be ended there. Next week, he’ll be on and off at KL again (but I hope that he’ll manage to watch the Dunia Baru the movie with or without Me.) maybe until May or June.

Now, I’m at home and had started missing him! Haha, mengarutlah! Since Mr. K*, I’d restricted myself from having that kind of feeling (tak berbaloi). Anyway to Mr. X, kerja rajin2 so that you can provide a comfortable life for your future family! (tak kisahlaa ngan sesape pun) but please take care of yourself too.