My favourite poem : She walks in beauty.

She walks in Beauty

SHE walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that 's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light	5
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;	10
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,	15
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!

Shoulder Guy.

Warning : Might induce puke mechanism or secret smiles. 

Results vary according to individuals. You have been warned.

This is a response from my previous post. I've been getting a lot of press regarding this matter (why am I suddenly talking matter-of-factly...anyways..) and there was a lot of anonymous CyntaSez readers (whom I knew but wishes to remain anonymous konon hahaha) got intrigued by this mysterious Shoulder Guy. Who is he? Do we know him? Si anu kah ni?

Well, since being secretive is part of my zodiac characteristics...

I won't expose his name but we met in the year 2000 where things were carefree and he was not even attractive. 

Why I like him (sans shoulder-related) and don't dare to tell him my lovey feelings for him?

Reason #1 : He is one of my closest friend. I confide to him everything and until now, he remains as one of my loyal friends. If he is a girl, he's definitely going to be one of my bridesmaids. Unlike other male friends who claimed to be besties with me (a frenemy in disguise), he's there for most of the time.

I remember one night when I was home alone, lonely and scared and I couldn't get any of my GGs on the phone (GGs, it was coincidental that you all were busy at that time), I gave him a call. He was about to watch a movie that he had waited the whole day to finish downloading and suddenly there was I, as guntalau as a coward (sama la tu kan..hahaha), asking for his company on the phone until my dad or elder bro gets home. We chatted for almost an hour and a half, and we talked about work, unrelated things, etc. He accompanied me until my elder bro got home and only after I "yeay-ed" (cos finally ada kawan di rumah), baru he said "Yeay! bulih suda sia sambung movie sia.." Dei. 

And one time, when I was accompanying my sick friend to a clinic at LD and I got bored (it was almost midnight) and I texted him. Dia juga yang kasi kawan sia until my friend abis kena check. All in all, he was there almost most of the time. He also pernah run to the boot of his car during a downpour to get an umbrella for me (because I was so damn hungry and the rain was so unforgiving). And of course, being a considerate friend, I tried holding the umbrella, but alas, he did it. I find that sweet and that became favourite memory. :-)

Reason #2 : On his left, he kinda looks like Rob Pattinson...ehehe. Muhau.

Reason #3: For unexplanable reasons, I love him just the way he is...warts and all. Oh, there's one time he really triggered my angry buttons and I told him I won't bother him again. I told him he doesn't have to be sarcastic to me.

He apologised. He admitted his mistakes when it was mine to begin with. I had experiences with many guy friends; we fought. Of course, I always got my way...but these guys will always justify their actions and why they won't apologise. Some even say they are the noble ones to ask for forgiveness when it was my fault. But not Mr Shoulders.

Well, Mr Shoulders has his own limitation too. He's moody to begin with. At one time, he'll shower you flowers and the next thing, he'll be quiet and during solitary confinement, I will be given the cold shoulder. My questions will be answered with one-lettered word e.g. K and "Oh". He also made me angry by sending to one of my GGs one angry email about the current political situation in our country. So far, I'm still angry at him for doing that but since he and GG is kinda close, so I guess I can't stay angry at him forever. If GG forgives, then I'll do the same.

So, that's half the story of Shoulder Guy. I don't know whether we'll drift away or become closer...I could only wish the best.

It's about his shoulders...

Okay, something personal from me. Well, I was going to post about a very arrogant speaker but I guess negativity and sarcasm are energy suckers, so let's talk about mushy, cheesy, lovey-dovey stuffs instead.

I have a crush on a friend of mine since we were in college several years back. The crush is growing strong everyday but I don't really have the guts to throw my emotions at him. He might run away and well, you know how it will go on.

So, one day, we went out for a drink and he mentioned about his best friend getting married in a forthnight. He was supposed to be the best man, but since there was a work commitment going on that time, he had to decline. I told him he should be his best friend's best man (well, after all he IS his best friend) but he said he can't. There are other guys more suitable, he said.

So I said, "Ngam la bah tu...ko kan nda sehensem dia, so you won't distract any girls on his special day." 

Dia pun terdiam.

He can't even touch his food.

Oooppssss.

Me and my loud mouth.

Then I said...

"Well, you are not as handsome as he is but you do have strong shoulders. Good, strong ones to lean on (for me). You look so macho bah with that pair of shoulders."

Baru si kawan tersenyum. Dei.

Well, he does have a good, strong shoulders.

If I have a problem, I could lean on him.

If I cry, I could cry on his shoulders.

His shoulders could support me when I'm feeling down.

When we see a beautiful sunset or sunrise, I could put my head on his shoulder and steal a gaze at his eyes.

Smoldering eyes are so ordinary,

To praise his kiss can be so cliched,

To say he has big hands...okayyyyyy.....

But I think I was attracted by his shoulders.

Weird kan saya?

But anyways, he does not and will never know about how I am captivated by his shoulders.

Wish I can put my head on his shoulders...haha.

Money.

Do you remember the old saying 'sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit'? After several years, my dad's piggy bank (or his tabung labu) is finally filled to the brim. So, the moral of the rambling today, keep thy spare change (then tell your children to count it). :-P

Back!!

Phew...the holidays are finally here! Been quite busy with work and some leisure+side incomes activities and of course the seasonal MLSB (sindrom Malas La Sia Blog) came to pay me a visit these three weeks...but I was mainly busy and hence the laziness...hehehe...

So, what have I been up to? A lot actually. One Sunday, my students and I finished up our classroom makeover. I bought them 16 litres of pink wall paint (and I totally forgot that the kain I bought for the curtains are blue!!) and tell the boys to paint while the girls lapik the desks. Child slavery...macam kan? hehehe...they enjoyed it so much that they wanted me to do this every Sunday. Alasan? "Teacher bulih pi tamu di pekan (Sook), kami hias kelas la..." said Lawrence. Awww...

Below : Lawrence (left) and Victor (right) painting the walls.

 

Then the next weekend, I went back to Melalap (my mother's kampung) to visit my grandmother. I don't want my DSLR to waste and accumulate dust, so I decided to take several photos of the ruins of Melalap North Borneo Train Station.

 

The old green building on the right was the Melalap train station. You can google the history of North Borneo Railway and you can read a few "hints" or "mentions" about this station.

According to my grandma, the station has been there since she was a little girl, even before the Japanese Occupation. But then again, that's her version, I still have to do research on that particular information.

 

Part of the station's roof. Still standing strong.

 

One of the pillars...

 

The front of the station...macam mau rubuh suda...

Here's a glimpse of my grandma's house at Kg Sawang, Melalap...

And no trip to kampung is complete without the foot dip in the sungai :-)

 

Then, on the long weekend, hanging out with one of my girlfriends is a must :-)

 

End of blog post....

For now. :-)