I miss him so much…
One thing I hate when it comes to falling in love is the feeling of absence. So people say "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", to me it is just another cliché. I hate this crazy feeling, this feeling of emptiness. I hate the consequences of such feeling; the excrutiating wait at the phone, the chocolate company, the lonely sigh that comes after the end of each day. I HATE the fact that I miss him so, and I don't know what his feelings to me are exactly. I don't want to spoil the friendship nor do I want the silent treatment that you would normally get after being rejected. Rejection, ah...that's another issue.
Why am I missing him so much? Why can't I pull myself out of this situation? Why can't I stop torturing myself? Is this because I haven't actually moved on? Or is it because I was afraid of the "single" status?
Why can't he stop being so sweet? Why can't he take away that smile of his that had never failed to make my heart break? Why can't he just disappear?!
Why can't I let him go…?
